Our blog will remain "Our Lives w/Little girls" lol

Gosh...
Its been so hard to get excited about blogging because I can't share any photo's. Only the stupid CELL PHONE photos. I can't wait to get my driver working again. UGH!
So I ask that you bare with me, I am trying to update my blog and I have SO MUCH to catch up on and I'll try to ad photo's where I can....
So, you all know that we had our 5th, and might I add FINAL daughter/child on June 21, 09, on FATHER'S DAY no less. The best gift that daddy could have gotten! I have to share my birth story and experience with you so just deal with it...if it gets to long, then deal with it! Its my story, so I wanna share it.
Bringing Savanna Vilate was THE BEST experience I could have ever asked for, being my LAST birth experience. Its been hard knowing that this indeed is our last, I have had a harder time with it then I thought I would although I know for sure that our family is complete. I was so ready to have Savanna. I was miserable, and huge, and hot, and swollen, and had NO SLEEP for about 2wks, but the last 3 days before she was born I really had NO sleep. It was wearing on me and I new that it was time.
We were scheduled to go into the hospital at 9am. I got up early around 5am just so I could have some time to myself. I am a very reflective person, and its very calming to me to just sit alone, in a quiet space and reflect. So I got up early to just have my own moment before everything got going. I had my moment alone and the day got started with Father Day wishes to daddy, nothing makes me more happy then seeing all my girls gathered around their daddy with smiles on their faces and Aaron's heart full. Its the best feeling.
My mom & dad showed up right on time at 8:30am. I had asked my dad to give me a blessing before we went to the hospital for this grand event. My dad couldn't have done a better blessing for me. I was already emotional this day, so much happening, so many feelings to deal with, and dad's blessing just eased my mind, and took my anxiety away. I really needed that, and I am so thankful he was able to give me this beautiful gift. I have to say that as he was giving me this blessing, I new right then that I was having another girl. It makes me cry to think about the feelings I was overtaken by, but I could feel Savanna's spirit with me from that moment on. She was defiantly ready herself to come into this world, and she was with me. Aaron and I headed out for the hospital, a long journey right down the road, lol..... he helped me out of the car, and we held hands into the hospital. As we walked down the long hall way of the Women's Center I said to him, " well babe, here we go, OUR LAST and FINAL walk down the hallway to the labor and delivery rooms" He was so scared and nervous I don't think he was enjoying the walk as much as I was....lol
We got set up in the room, and I got all hooked up to the stupid monitors and IV's.... they didnt' start pitocen because HELLO..... I was in labor already! Yea I was having some pretty good contractions all on my own. Around 10:30 my Dr, Dr Dewey came in and talked golf with Aaron, and then told me he was going to break my water...."WHAT" I thought we had discussed getting an epidural first...... I new one thing, from past experiences, once my water broke, it brought on PAIN, & lots of it! however, he broke my water and I was fine.... no major or unbearable pain, but then he said to turn on the pitocen and turn it up high.....WHAT??? O goodness.... here we go.
I got very miserable very fast after that. I finally gave up and asked for an epidural around 11:30 or so I dont know really.... I just new it was instant gratification once I got it, and I am forever grateful for the "epidural man" he's the bestest!
I was finally able to focus on who was there, and what was going on, and enjoy this experience. HOwever, I kept getting horrible anxiety and everytime the monitor made a noise I freaked out thinking something was wrong with the baby. We had just a few small scares, but it sent Aaron and I into panic mode. My mom and girls showed up, and as my mom was sitting there talking with me, and by my side, I had a really wierd feeling, they had just checked me and I was at a 5 they figured it would be awhile, so my Dr went on home to wait for the call to come back. I felt really wierd, and some pressure so the nurses came running in, and said they were going to chk me again.....well I was at a 7 and a half at this point. I really was feeling like this baby was coming really soon. just a few minutes later they came back in and checked me and I was ready to go....it happened that fast. Dr Dewey came in, they started getting the bed ready, Dr Dewey told me to push with the contractions I felt, as he was getting himself ready for the delivery, I pushed twice while Aaron helped me, and Dr Dewey walked over took his position, told me to push, I did that twice, and there she was..... Aaron just was soooo relieved that he didn't have to watch me go through the hell I went through with A'jaye. We just cried together feeling so relieved that it was over, and we had NO trouble. I watched Aaron take our baby girl over to the scales, and he just had this look on his face that told me he felt so PROUD, and so blessed. SHe had so much dark hair, and olive skin tone, she was just beautiful.
THE CUTEST THING though that I remember from her birth was my 3 girls, Derian, Ashlynn and Kymbree standing behind the curtain awaiting the birth of their brother or sister and Kymbree hearing the first cry's from baby Savanna and her cute little excited squeel .....she just was sooo excited to hear that baby cry, and it was the sweetest sound! I could hear them all..."its a girl, really its a girl"
I have to say that not knowing what this baby was, was truly the best experience we've had. It brought a sense of excitement to the delivery and to the pregnancy. I would do that again in a heartbeat! Although I new in my heart after dad's blessing that we were having another girl, it was still exciting.
After all the excitment of the easy delilvery the wrapped her up and brought her over to me, gosh there's nothing better then holding your newborn that you worked so hard to bring into the world. Its a mother's best accomplishment in my opinion. Aaron took her, and was holding her, all the girls gathered around their dad and baby sister, and I looked over and tears filled my eyes as I looked at Aaorn with all his girls, gosh how did he become so blessed? We chuckle and tease that God is punishing him, or that he's dumed with all these girls..... but the man couldn't be prouder of all these girls. I just hugged him tight after everyone left and told him that God gave him a job in this life, and he new that he was the man for the job, he's the best daddy to little girls, and he won't fail them. It takes a special dad to be a daddy to little girls, and he does an amazing job with them.
SO, thats my birth story.... SO EASY! I felt great afterwards and was ready to go home THE NEXT MORNING! but I stayed even though I didn't want to. When I was released and ready to go, the nurse came in only to tell me that our baby couldn't go home just yet. SHe had tested positive for Kooms disease which is just a bad case of jaundice so she had to go under the lights and stay under the lights for at least 24hrs. I made the decision to go home anyhow and just come and feed her and hold her as much as I could. I wasn't getting any rest at the hospital and was just ready to go home. I wouldn't be able to hold her that much anyhow, so I went home. I made a trip in every 3hrs to hold her, and feed her. It was tough not being able to bring her home with us right away, but we new she had to get better. SHe did well, and was home on Wednesday night.
The first days with her home were tough. She cried a lot due to the jaundice. I dont know how we made it though those first few days. There's NO WAY I could've done it with all my girls home I know that. I am so thankful for my parents taking the girls all that week. It was truly the best gift EVER. Although I missed them dearly, the time with Savanna was very much needed.
We survived the first wk of her being with us. Time flies by it seems. I dont want her to get any bigger. I am trying to enjoy her being a newborn because this is my last baby. Everyday I enjoy with her, and I savor it all! They change so fast that you can't keep up it seems.
WE love her so much.... she is such a blessing to our family and a perfect ending to our baby days.....
Ok....fam I promise I'll do better w/the blog, I tell ya, if you want updates, facebook is where to get them...its faster, and simple and quick. I can update, there and all I have is a few minutes each time I sit down....but I still love to blog, and I will do my best to keep it up, its just harder now days..... stay patient with me, I'll get back to normal some day. Love ya all

Life has been hectic....

Ok, well.... I know I haven't been blogging lately, but I love Facebook more now. lol JK, I haven't been able to get any new pics on my computer so its hard to want to blog when you can't share photos of any of the fun stuff we've been doing.
We've done a few fun things too. We took the kids fishing and on a picnic which was just fun. We didn't go far, just down to Salem ponds, and the only thing we caught was a snapping turtle, but hey the kids had fun the rest of the day playing with this turtle, and begging us to keep it. We broke their hearts and had to tell them NO.... their dirty, stinky and THEY BITE! GEEZ! I'd have to worry about the turtle taking off a finger or something, NO THANX!
We bbq'd our favorite hamburgers for everyone and of course they were a hit, like always. Aaron is getting pretty dang good on that grill, and he loves coming up with new things, and new ways to bbq things. I love summer time cuz he cooks alot.
What else has been going on..... Aaron and the girls have a Sunday morning tradition lately. They get up and go for the "T" time on the golf course. They have so much fun too, and I love that they spend time together doing something fun that they all love to do. I guess I shouldn't say Aaron and the girls, cuz that sounds like Aaron and ALL the girls, NOPE.....he just takes the older two and that's ok, cuz they don't get a whole lot of time alone with their daddy, and they miss that sometimes. They come back all laughing together and talking about their crashing the golf cart, and daddy missing the ball... and all the awesome deer they spotted along the way. I really love it that they have fun together. I love that they spend time like that with their dad. The last two Sundays they haven't made it home in time for primary but u know what, that's ok. Family time is good time too. In fact last Sunday, they were gone from 11am and didn't get home till nearly 5pm. They did the entire 18 hole coarse and spent so much down time spotting the deer, and bunny rabbits, and wrecking the golf cart that it took forever! but they had an awesome time.
The kids got out of school and this was their first week home. I have to say that its SOOO Nice to have them here with me. My days are so much better with them all here. The older two have helped out so much entertaining the little ones. Plus they have helped me with daily chores, which has been nice. & they've had time to have some fun too, cuz they are kids, and not child slaves, lol.
Derian has spent alot of time out with her friend Ashley. She lives on a farm sorta, and they have so much fun out there. She told me it reminds her of Redmond. Ashlynn has also been spending alot of time with her friend Maggie doing sleepover's and play days. They have so much fun together. My kids have fabulous friends and that's nice for me not having to worry about who they are hanging out with. I think its going to be an amazing summer. I already have the kids on a routine, and we've stuck to it almost everyday, and it just makes things go more smoothly. We all get up get some breakfast, and get after our chores, and laundry, I've made a deal with them that they help me out till after lunch and then the day is theirs to do what they want with in reason of course, lol. Its worked out nicely, and we all seem to be in a better mood this way. I think we'll stick to it.
We recently went down to Aurora for a Lloyd Family reunion. WOW! It was sure nice to see everyone. I just kept looking at all the family thinking, what a legacy my grandparents have started, and it continues. I kept thinking about Grandpa Lloyd and how I'm sure he was looken down on all of us, with the proud face on. It sorta brought a tear to my eye as we were all gathered around the tables getten ready to surprise Grandma, she walked in and we all yelled SURPRISE.... just looking at her, I could almost see my Grandpa Lloyd next to her, walking along side her. It made me miss him.... but i know he was with us that day, and he was just as proud as ever of his family.
It was nice to see everyone. Its to bad we don't get together more often then every 15yrs or so, lol.
Well, baby is due in 11 days, or rather, not due, but is coming in 11 days regardless of whether it wants to or not. I'm having mixed feelings about it all. I go through periods that I'm excited and anxious to hold my baby and have him/her in my arms but at the same time I am scarred to death to go through it all to get this baby here. With my bad experience with A'jaye from beginning to end, I worry about it all happening again. My epidural was painful, the IV was painful, the labor was painful and scary it makes me all apprehensive. Also, I am uptight about having 5 kids, and having these last 3 so close together. I struggle so much with Kymbree and A'jaye to the point of tears some days & now I have to add another. I took the kids to the pool a couple days ago for the first time. I love going to the pool, last year we had so much fun going, and Payson has a nice facility. However, going with 2 toddlers this year instead of one, all I did was chase Kymbree and A'jaye and if one wasn't crying the other one was, and if the other wasn't running off, the other one was. I was going crazy trying to keep up with the two little ones, how the hell will I do 3 of them. I had promised the girls we'd go to the pool alot this summer cuz we all love it so much, but I'm thinking twice about that now. I hate putting some of the load on my older two, but they are so good to pitch in with out me asking. Ashlynn was so good to help me out on the way out to the car, it just made me cry, that she just took that initiative and helped me cuz she new I was so tired. I just looked at her and felt so sad that I don't have more time to give to each one of them like I want too. Someone always gets shortchanged, and its usually my older two. I had a good meltdown that night, and Aaron had to listen to me boob for ahour but I felt better.... lol. I guess I'll figure it out and do what I have to do. I don't ever remember it being this hard when Derian & Ashlynn were little I guess that proves the differences in personalities. Kymbree is just the cutest kid ever, she makes us laugh, but she also makes us cry, ALL OF US! She's just full of life....& sometimes its not so fun.
Despite how crazy I am feeling about having 5 kids to care for I do feel like all my kids are blessings, and meant to be apart of our lives and somehow Aaron and I will find the time to give them each what they need I hope. We are truly blessed with amazing kids, and each one brings a special gift to our family. YES they make me nuts, but I love them more then anything!

Sorry there's no pictures, but we'll get some up at some point. I don't know that I'll blog again before baby comes we'll save it for when baby comes.... SO until next time....

Oh wait....I do have to add that we went to the Hogle Zoo this past weekend with Aaron's sister Chrissy and her 3 awesome kids, and Grandma Sandy. I have to be honest, I really didn't want to go, I was fighting it, and trying to find an excuse to not go (sorry guys...) I just wasn't in the mood for the heat, the crowd, the walking, the dragging 4 kids out, but we went, & I have to tell you I am so glad I did. It was just a great day out with the kids and their cousins. The weather couldn't have been better, the crowd wasn't that bad, & the company was even better. A'jaye was so fun to watch as she squealed at the monkey's swinging towards her, and she'd get so excited to see all the animals. Kymbree was on good behavior and Grandma Sandy kept check on her for me (maybe that is why she was behaving well....she seems to be good for other ppl) . It was just a lot of fun, and I am so glad the kids got to spend some time together. Thanks Chrissy and Sandy for an awesome day out.... I am really glad we went.

A Mother's Day Tribute.....

Oh my goodness. Aaron and I are extremely blessed when it comes to the Mother's in our life. Not only do we have my mom, his mom but we also are very blessed with a wonderful 3rd mom too. I guess most would technically call her Step Mom but I never liked that term so we just call her mom too. We also have been blessed with grandma's that are a great gift to us.

There are a lot of wonderful women on both of our family sides and we are so grateful for each and every one of them.

I could talk about all of them, right down to the great grandma's and many aunts we have, but I am going to keep it at the Mom's for this......

I'll start with Susan. She came into Kurt's life when Ashlynn was just a baby or at least that is when they started dating I guess. She was a co-worker of his for years. I liked her instantly & so did Aaron. They got married, and had a fun wedding. Her and Kurt are just a blast to be around. We always have an amazing time when we are with them. Susan has got Kurt involved with all his kids & she LOVES to have family get togethers and have us visit them. She is so caring and we always have an email or we get a phone call to see how we are and how the kids are. Susan has a kind heart, and a caring heart, and a nurturing nature. She makes us laugh with all her funny "kid" comments and the kids laugh too, cuz they know Grandma really wouldn't duct tape them to a chair...haha. My kids took to her really fast, and love her so much. When she married Kurt, she not only took on a husband but she also took on an entire family of kids and grandkids, and she has loved us and cared for us all as if she was always there. That is something I really admire about her. She really cares about all of us. Thanks Susan for all you do for our family, and the love and support you've given us. We love you!

Aarons mom Sandy is another great inspiration to our family. Aaron has a lot of respect and love for his mom and she has made him a man that I love beyond measure. Sandy is like another mom to me, I've had her apart of my life now for half my life so of course I also have a lot of respect and love for her as a mom, a mother in law, and a friend. She loves us, and cares a great deal for us and has given us alot of support over the years. She loves her grand girls...right down to our dog zoey...she even calls her her grand-dogdaughter, lol. The girls adore her & love her so much & so do we!

Thanx mom for all your love & support thru out our lives, now and in the past! You've always been there for us in our good times and our bad, and we appreciate you! We love & respect the women you are & our very proud your our mom! From a daughter in law to her Mother in law THANK YOU for bringing up a son that I love & respect and whom takes care of his family as he does. Thank you for being a supportive Mom in law and being there for me. I see you as a mother, not a mother in law, and you are also a very close friend too! WE LOVE YOU!

TO my mom..... This one is a little bit special to me, as it should, she is my mother, she gave birth to me, raised me and has been there for me all my life & now she is there for not only me but her grand-daughters, and son in law. Mom, your not only my mother whom I respect as such but you are one of my best friends. You are a friend that I want to call when something exciting, sad, stressful, bad, happy happens to me. I love our talks & I miss that we dont do that as much anymore. I know life gets in the way, but there isn't a day that goes by that I dont think of you at least a handful of times even if I dont talk to you. You've done so much to help my family, which in turn helps me thru out the years of my life & I honestly don't know how I'd get thru most of it w/out you! Your a strong women, a caring women, a giving women. You give of yourself even when you dont have the strength to do so. You love your family, your kids with all your heart, and it shows in your actions, words & thoughts everyday. My girls adore you & love to visit with you.

You've made my life a better world & I can never repay you for that. Its such a blessing and a comfort just to know that if I need you to fall back on you are there. As I've mentioned MANY times just having you in the area calms me down.... I know you havent been in the room with me during each birth I've given but seeing your hands on the door, or knowing your htere by the door makes me feel better, it brings a calming to my soul that only a mother can bring. THANK YOU for being there, THANK YOU for all you've done in my life. I love you beyond measure.

As I've said, Aaron and I are so blessed with many great women in our life & THANK YOU for being such wonderful blessings to us & our children!!!!

WE LOVE YOU ALL!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPA KEITH!!!!

Gosh, its been a busy two months with all these birthdays we've had recently, but birthdays are a time to tell a person in your life how important they are to you& thats always a fun thing to do.
My blog lately has been all birthday posts, but as I mentioned they are fun to post. We just had Grandpa Lloyd's birthday, now we have Grandpa Keith's birthday! The girls had fun talking back and forth about fun memories of their grandpa's. Here are some of their responses about Grandpa Keith and what he means to them.....

Derian: " Its fun to go to Grandpa Keiths, & when he takes us down to the horses its so much fun!
Ashlynn: "Grandpa makes yummy breakfast for us, & I like to spend time with him at the horses"
Kymbree: Papa has a playhouse & sand....him let us play on them"
A'jaye: well, she's a baby, and doesn't talk much, but as I've menitoned before, she's such a grandpa's girl, she always has a great time tearing up Grandpa's magazines, or clearing the cofeee table, grandpa's so good to just let her do her thing, it cleans up......

Some of Aaron and I's thoughts on Dad......
Aaron's dad is always willing to help us out when we need, it doesn't matter how big the task, or how small, we know we can always rely on him for help. The love he has for his grandkids is evident whenever they are around him. He showers them with hugs & attention & loves to visit with the older ones.
He wont admit it much, but he's sort of a big teady bear when it comes to those little ones & loves the slobber kisses, they give him.
He enjoys very much when we come to visit & stay for the night or weekend, it doesn't happen a lot just cause its so hard to travel with 4, soon to be 5 kids but you can tell he's just thrilled to have us around.
He's very proud of his family, his kids and grandkids. He supports all his kids, and grandkids in every thing they do. He loves to watch the grandkids have fun whether at his house or in any activity they might be involved in.

A story I remember about Keith is when he bought us all circus tickets & we all went as a family to the circus, all of us were there except for Jeremy, Chrissy's husband. All the grandkids were there though which was the most important part. We decided to ride the Tram downtown just so we wouldn't have to fight traffic or parking & it let us off right by the Delta Center. It was raining so hard that day, so here we all are running with kids in tote, bags, diapers, binkies, strollers the whole nine yards to thr tram. He was buying us all tickets to get on the train while we stood in line to get on. Well it took awhile for the tokens to be gotten, so Michael and I were holding the door for Dad so it wouldn't close and leave him there..... it kept yellling at us to get outta the doorway, loud, louder, VERY LOUD, lol....we all got on that tram, soaking wet and kids crying he barely made it on the train & he stayed so calm even with everyone just frustrated with being wet, kids crying.... I think we all looked like the circus ourselves. LOL!
We had a great time that day even though it was quite the event to get us all there, together, and kids happy. When we left our seats to leave, it looked like a bomb had gone off with spilt cherry slushi's, and popcorn, & candy all over the floor, sticky kids, and sleepy tired kids. then we decided to torture ourselves even more & go out to eat at a restraunt together, as if the circus wasn't enough. WE had a chance to sit at the table and just visit and laugh, and it was a great time being all together and doing something that was fun. The grandkids one by one went and gave hugs to papa and thanked him for the day at the circus. You could see the look of joy and love in Papa's eyes. It made him happy, I could tell to put a smile on their faces.


Aaron and appreciate you, Dad for your love and support. we hope you had a fabulous day on your birthday & we love you!

MY DAD!

Well, it was his birthday on May 1st, but because I am a big old looser, I forgot I had a blog to pay tribute to him. If he wasn't such a great guy, I wouldn't even bother at this point, but HE IS!...so even though its late, I haveta share some thoughts about him.

So I asked my kids what they all liked about Grandpa Lloyd and this is their responses:

Derian.... "Grandpa pulled my tooth out, and it didn't even hurt....he's magic"

Ashlynn.... "I like to hug on Grandpa, but he has whiskers" (this especially made me laugh cuz great grandpa lloyd was FAMOUS for the same stunt)

Kymbree.. "(BIG GRIN, and a shy look) ..... I wuv papa Oyd"

A'jaye.... well, she speaks for herself when ever Grandpa comes to the door, she's the first to run to him, FAST....with her arms out to hold her. She LOVES her Grandpa, she is a total grandpa's girl.

and as for me.... this is what I haveta say about my Dad....

He's a quiet man, that doesn't say a whole lot, but you can always tell how he feels by the look in his eyes. His eyes speak volumes! I've always respected my dad for the person that he is, and the way he lives his life. He never judges a soul, and he always has a giving heart. So I guess he isn't so quiet after all because his actions are loud especially when it comes to his kids and family.

I haveta add a little story, that I always think of. When I had A'jaye he was there, and it was comforting to have my family there. My dad would sit in this chair in the room and look at me with these loving eyes, as if he wanted to take ALL the pain away but couldn't.... It came time for A'jaye to come into this world and everyone left the room. I remember after I had the baby he came in and sat in that same chair, and I could tell that he had been crying, or was visibly upset, it really touched me to the point of tears myself....afterwards I asked my mom what was wrong with dad, and she told me he was just so concerned and worried and overcome with fear.... it was a tuff delivery, but I think my dad carried most that burden for me that day, I might felt the pain, but that day my dad took the emotional burden for me! I honestly think that to this day, that is why A'jaye is so oooo emotionaly attatched to him.

Aaron was so touched by his words he spoke to us all at Thanksgiving dinner that it had him even choked up. He also always mentions the time that dad took him out on the porch (not a basement talk this time, lol) & expressed how much he appreciated him for the way he took care of me, and his kids. That he respected the person that Aaron is & saw him as a son and loved him. This meant so much to Aaron to hear that from his Father in law it really just meant the world to him. He explains dad as being a very quiet man, but when he speaks, you had better listen cause he means every word of it, and it always comes from the heart.

Dad, I hope you had a fabulous birthday. I know our family loves you beyond measure. Your quite the man and you will ALWAYS hold a special place in your daughters heart!

We love you......

Happy Birthday Ashlynn!!

Our baby girl turns 8 today! I can't believe it. Before she went to bed last night she came in to talk with us and we both told her that we were going to wake her up at 1:30a.m and then keep her up from then on out sense that is what she did to us this day 8 yrs ago. I'll never forget her birth story, of course I dont think a mom ever forgets ANY of her childrens birth stories. We, as mother's remember every detail, every moment, but one thing we do forget about is the pain! (least I think we do forget cuz we just keep doing it, lol) Ashlynn was by far my easiest baby to have, although the day was full of labor pains and being uncomfortable she was the easiest when it came right down to the big event, and recovery was simple and fast!

She weighed in at 6lbs even, I remember looking at her face and she was so small and petite with these big brown eyes. She was so little, and such a small package of joy! I still can't believe that my mom's biggest fear that day was that I would go into labor sense it was my brother Chads mission farewell in church and we were all due to talk as a family. When I called her at 1:30 telling her we were heading to the hospital she just sighed..... I remember the nurse coming in with my dr and asking me if I wanted to stay at 6:30am or if I wanted to go home and labor and then just come back. I looked at the time, and said.... I'm going home, and going to church to talk for my brother's farewell. Aaron was like...UMMMM NO! but I came home, showered, got my girls ready and we made it, we were late, but we made it. I talked, and went thru all of church as well as the family dinner we did afterwards with contractions 5min or less apart.

I tease Ashlynn to this day that she just wanted to make sure that I got in all of my brother's farewell, and wasn't going to get me out of talking in church. I remember doing the talk for my brother & having pains all thru it, but we got thru it, and right after the dinner when Aaron took me back home I lied down for a few minutes, and stood up and my water broke right there on the living room floor. IT freaked Aaron out a little. .... & then HOLY CRAP I was in major pain. Daddy carried me out to the car...w/me screaming and moaning the whole way to Gunnison saying HURRY I'm going to die!!! It hurt so bad! It wasn't to much longer that she was placed in our arms, a perfect little brown eyed baby girl that we loved and still do forever and always. She's so special to us. She was such a good baby, and just so petite and little with her itty bitty pie face. She still has those petite features she just got older is all.

Things we love about our Ashlynn bug......

* Her big brown eyes!

* Even when she's angry she's so cute, especially when she grits her teeth and clinches her fists....

* She speaks her mind even if you dont like what she says

* She loves her little sisters, and is always so good to play with them when she gets home from school. She gets so happy to see A'jaye come running after her saying...."SISSY SISSY"

* She loves everyone, and is so tender hearted

* She loves to help mom in the kitchen, doing dishes, wiping down counters, and cooking

* She also loves to spend time with her dad doing "daddy guy" stuff. She loves to get dirty, and do yard work with him, she loves to help him fix things, and greasy hands, and worms on hooks, and cleaning the fish..... she is fascinated with motors, fancy tires, and old time classic vehicles. Aaron loves that!

* Even though she loves to get greasy, and loves doing the boy stuff with dad she also is very much a dress and skirt fancy shoes girl. She loves to have the girly things to wear and fingernails painted, and toes to match.....

Ashlynn is a joy to have in our home. She keeps life interesting, and she makes me a better mom and Aaron a better dad just cause she's honest and tells us what we are doing wrong, and tells us what she needs from us. She doesn't hold back her emotions, and that is something that I do appreciate about her. She does express herself very well, lol. Aaron says he is glad for that, she wont b afraid to put the boys in their places!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLYNN! You'll always be our brown eyed baby girl forever! Your turning into a beautiful young lady and we love the person you are becoming each year. You make us so proud. You know sweetie, your almost at your age cap.... daddy has put an age cap on all of you girls and that age is 10 so you only get 2 more birthdays and thats it, lol..... Daddy says NO girls past 10. haha. Love ya baby girl!

FOR AUNT AMANDA............WE LOVE YOU!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Well sense its Amanda's birthday and she's always doing nice blogs up for everyone else I thought the girls and I would take a moment and do the same thing (only not as cute as her's I'm sure) for her..... She deserves it! We love her.....

We love (Auntee) Amanda bcuz..........

* She's super fun when we stay at her house, & plays with us for a long time......

* She's super cool, & knows how to rock out to the hippest songs that we like.....

* She's always so loving to us when she see's us, we always get a BIG HELLO, and hug from her!

* She gave us our bestest sweetest cutest baby cousin, Paislee that we love so much!!!

K...now a grown up version of the best things about Amanda.....

* She is very loving to all the family and you can tell that she cares deeply for everyone.......

* She's an awesome wife to our brother Chad, whom I am sure takes a lot of patience to live with (smile).... jk, Chad, but Amanda is a great, loving, best friend to you and we love her for that cuz we know she makes your world complete and happy!

* She really is a great mom to Paislee, and when I say REALLY a great mom, I really mean it! She should have lots of kids!!!

* She loves to help out anyone she can, especially family, and I have felt her love many times in her giving ways, and you really feel that she wants to help and be there for you!

* She's so easy to talk to, and hang out with

* The girl knows how to have a good time! She's funny, and social, and smiles alot, and I love that she loves to be involved with things, and help out, and be a part of any thing we do......

* She loves family things, and wants to bring the family together, which I think is very awesome of her!!!

* Most of all, I just love the person she is inside and out. I think she is a beautiful person, that has the most genuine spirit a person could have. Her love for her family radiants from her, and that makes her even more beautiful!

WE LOVE YOU AMANDA!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

We hope you have a special day!

30 wks.... & problems!

Goodness me..... here we are at 30wks and counting. I have 10-11wks left at least thats what we hope for!
Its been an eventful week that has brought worry, stress & action. Monday I started having what I thought were just braxton hicks contractions. They progressed thru the evening and got to be somewhat uncomfortable and a bit stronger and frequent then I felt comfortable with. They continued thru the night and into Tuesday a little. I decided to put a call into the Dr, which I hate doing because you just feel like your jumping the gun & freaking out over nothing but I just had a feeling that calling the dr was the right thing to do.
He told me to continue thru the night, but to go into the ER if I was having them like the night before, and if not he'd see me this morning. Well, we made it thru the night, and I took my appointment this morning as planned. I had just a few contractions this morning, but nothing like I was experiencing the night and day before. He checked me out and unfortunately, I wasn't just having braxton hicks contractions but the real thing & it had progressed me to a 1 cm. Now, I realize that its just a one, and there's several more cm to go before you give birth, but I'm only 30wks so that isn't exactly what my dr would like to see. we also got an ultrasound just to check the position of the baby, the size and the placenta to make sure the baby was getting sufficient blood, nutrients & oxgyn which baby looked great. The heartbeat was strong, and normal and activity was still really good. We did discover that the baby is now head down which is a good thing, but at 30 wks that could change again too.
Dr. Dewey sent me home with instructions to take it easy as possible & to keep track of my contractions. If we go over 5 in a hours time, no matter how consistent they are I have to go into the ER, however if we don't exceed 5 in a hours time but are still having them he wants to see me in a couple days to be checked again to make sure its not progressing me any further. If it does progress me past the 1 cm then I will start medication and full bed rest to get it all to stop. If we get to a 2 cm & its looken like we're going further he will start giving the baby steroid shots to help with baby's lung development in case the baby does come earlier then 39wks.
He'd like to see me get at least to 35wks, which is 5 more weeks.
I am relatively calm about this although I do realize the seriousness of it all. I guess I am trying not to freak out over it because stress and anxiety will NOT help my cause. I figure all I can do is do my part to take it easy and follow the direction of the Dr & put it in Gods hands that everything will be ok either way. As long as my baby is ok in there, and its not effecting my little peanut then I can do whatever I'm asked to do on my end to keep the baby in good condition as well as myself. I also believe that the mind is a powerful thing, and I have to stay positive one way or the other. Thinking negative thoughts about it all the time isn't going to help, but only hurt so I'm trying to just keep upbeat and focused.
Aaron is being wonderful and doing his part to help out and take over, my older two girls came home from school today & took over all the house duties as well as helping me out with the younger two. My mom is on stand by to come at a moments notice if I need her, which is a HUGE comfort to me.....its all a comfort to me. The support of family is always so appreciated!
Of course I am worried about it all, however, I really do have a calm approach to this, and I feel good that everything will be ok in the end. In fact, it will just be my luck that we will struggle with stopping delivery to 35 wks, and then when the dr gives the lift on stopping it, my body will put a stop to it & I'll go over again like I always do, lol. NAH, I dont think so this time..... I think we'll b blessed to get another month out of this pregnancy....so we'll hope for that, and strive for that! Dr. Dewey couldn't pinpoint any one reason as to why this is happening other then just the effects on a body after having 5 kids, 3 of which are all very close..... apparently it's not very good to the bod!
This picture is Kymbree giving the baby a love when I got back this morning....she said to me " momma, baby wants out, & I want baby out" I told her that baby had to stay in there for at least another month...and she gave me the ole sigh........ She's overly excited to see baby, and help me with baby, which I think is so cute!

Our puppy, is now a Lady dog..... lol

WELL WELL WELL.... our little girl, has now become a young lady dog! Zoey's in HEAT! HOW FUN for me...... & what awesome timing! Right at the start of spring, and warm weather, and when the kids want to b outside, and so does she!!!! We new it was going to happen soon, but I guess I was secretly hoping it wouldn't happen till after baby came, or something. I know we have that choice to NOT let her come in contact w/another male dog & we dont plan to this time around, but its such a pain in teh butt! My life is already full of things to watch, and look after, and keep out of trouble so this is just another MAJOR thing to deal with. We DO NOT want her becoming mommy zoey with another male boxer, let alone another male neighborhood dog. Thank goodness for us their isn't a whole lotta "in tack" male dogs around but like Aaron said, let her out & just see how many dogs come around.....apparantly dogs have a "scent" for another female in heat...O JOY! We defiantly want her to have puppies & are excited for that time to come but NOT NOW! not anytime in the next yr! We figure we'll let her next spring....can we hold her back, I SURE HOPE SO! lol
She really is a great dog, & she loves us so much. Its so funny that she thinks she's really one of the kids. This picture is her looking out the window down at the kids playen on the trampoline. She was sooo hurt that she wasn't invited. Her most favorite thing is when the girls get home from school because she knows they'll be going outside to jump & YES she does jump with them! Its hilarious! I dont think any of us realize just how BIG she is really. When she stood up to look out the window this day, I really realized just how HUGE she is...... There's only a couple things we need to work on for her to be the perfect pet dog......
* CHEWING up everything! (I have to remember she's just a puppy still....)
* Getting to excited when new ppl come to the house, & she wants to jump on them, or run out the door to say hello to them....
* being polite when ppl are here.....
* & getting anxiety when we leash her up. SHe can't stand not being apart of our family, so chaining her up outside hurts her feelings I guess, lol....makes me nuts!

OVerall....we love her, & these are minor things that she will get better with time on. She's a yr old this month, I can't believe that we've had her for almost a yr in June. She really has become apart of our family, and we just adore her. COngrats Zoey, your a big girl now! haha...(u just can't act on your nature just yet, sorry)

SPRING HAS COME & I LOVE IT!

Another wk has past, so I decided to do a blog entry. I dont really have alot of pics to share, or even huge family events so I included this pic I took a couple wks ago at our first trip to the park. One good thing, there's NO MORE snow visible in the vally's due to the recent warm up! I LOVE SPRING! Its by far my most favorite season. Here's why....
* the sound of the birds chirping...
*the smell of rain, fresh flowers, & fresh cut grass I LOVE
* butterflies & hummingbirds make themselves present
* Fresh air, and walks outside!
* THE KIDS CAN PLAY OUTSIDE! no more cooped up kiddo's!
* & last but not least...there's something about spring that makes me wanna open up the windows, turn on the radio, & clean out everything! SPRING CLEANING!

I took the two babies on our first picnic at the park yesterday. It was so fun for the kids to go play, and b outside in the warm, fresh air. It makes a huge difference in their attitudes. I think having some sun out, and some warm weather uplifts everyone's mood. Its not so cold, dark and dreary! I know it helps my mood too. I invited one of my friends & her 2 1/2 yr old son to go too, it was so cute to see Kymbree & him run towards each other & say HI... and give each other a huge hug and kiss, lol. SO FUNNY! We were there for 2.5hrs it just felt so nice to be out! Later that night, however I noticed that even a "not so" bright sun can give you your first sunburn. Myself & A'jaye caught some sun on our arms and face, but it was sooo worth it! I LOVE SPRING!
I guess I'll update you all on my pregnancy while I'm at it.... we're now nearing 30wks. I can't believe it, that leaves me about 10-11wks left! I already posted the picture of our ultrasound. I catch myself looking at it almost everyday.... Its really wierd for me to look at my girls all together, or see them all in a picture because I do feel like their is a baby missing & I catch myself trying to search down this missing baby so its validation, I suppose that this baby is defiantly apart of our family, and was always meant to be apart of our clan. Why he/she would want to be, is beyond me because we're sorta crazy, and not the most together group, but we do love each other all very much, and we do try to have a great family.....its a work in progress though. Aaron and I love our children so much, and each of them bring such a different presents to our family, its like they all hold a piece to the puzzle, called "our family" & w/out each piece it just can't be complete. They all have strong spirits that we, as their parents, need in our lives. These girls help us & teach us to be better, stronger people when I thought it was always supposed to be the opposite in that we teach them to be stronger and better people, little people that is.... but it is clearly the other way. I guess in some way, we all help each other be better people and that is what a family is about!

Here's our little peanut....

Here's our little peanut. I was hoping I'd get the 3D ultrasound but we didn't get it obviously. This is, if you can't tell, the side profile & he has his little hands in a fist. well I say HE, but honestly I dont know, and I didn't let the dr tell me. He kept teasing me, but its still a suprise baby. Now, I'm so excited to see this little thing, and hold him/her. The baby is breech right now, so we're hoping that it starts to turn although it has plenty of time yet, but running outta room so it needs to turn! We will ck at the next 2 visits. My placenta has corrected itself, and has gone to the top which is a good thing, I dont know how I woulda done full bed rest for the next 3mo! Luckily we dont have to!
My due date has been pinpointed to June 28th going off the measurements, but he said that it could go 10days in either direction, being June 15 or July 5th. Maybe born on Grandma Lloyds bday! I dont wanna go that long though...I'm ready NOW!
Today's appt just made me so excited to get this baby here, and meet this little person. Kymbree went with and stood on the bench and watched intently the ultrasound monitor. I was suprised she made out the babies profile, but she said...."O MY GOSH momma, deres baby bruder" Then she told Dr Dewey..."my momma has a baby in her belly, and its going b borned in dere, dats my baby bruder" It was sorta adorable! A'jaye went too, but she could care less.... she doesn't have a clue whats about to happen, lol.
Anyhow....things look good otherwise, and everything is in order.....well, everything is in order with babies development that is, outside the womb, nothing is ready but time will fix that! Time fixes everything, right?

growing belly.......

Well here it is, our baby at 26.5 wks along. This baby is a mover & a shaker! A very active little thing..... I'm so excited to be able to see this baby for a full ultra sound on Monday. I believe we'll be getting a 3D ultra sound too, which will be awesome even though I find those things to be a little freaky! I already feel such a connection, even moreso I think then my other babies at this point, with this baby & already have begun bonding with him/her. I can't wait to meet this little thing & see what baby looks like, who will he/she resemble the most? Funny thing is I'm more excited to see what baby looks like, then to know the sex of the baby. I have to say that I would HIGHLY suggest waiting to find out to everyone that will still be having babies. Its been SO FUN not knowing. It sorta adds to the excitment of the entire process, & actually helps you get thru each month even more. Its sorta like a present that you can't wait to open up. The girls refer to baby as "baby brother" , but I refer to baby as "suprise baby" for more then one reason, lol. Either way we just feel SO blessed to be having this baby, and with each day that passes I feel even stronger that this baby has a purpose to our family, and has such a strong spirit. I feel this baby all around me everyday & I can't wait for the day that I get to hold her/him.
I sorta feel bad for husbands, they miss out on this special experience of having baby in the womb. There are times I wish Aaron could take the load of carrying baby, but I'd NEVER want to give this part up for anything. ITs funny how as a women we love and hate being pregnant. There are parts I'd give up rignt now forever, but feeling baby move, hiccup, being a part of me is the most special gift God has given us as women. How amazing that our bodies build another life....its just absolutely amazing to me. I always tell my girls that their belly buttons are their tie to me, they think that is just the neatest thing, & sorta it is!
Well we have just under 3mo till baby comes..... & I'm trying to just enjoy every moment of it as ready as I am to be done with this stage of my life, it also makes me sad that this is the final one & I will NO longer experience carrying a baby again, but I've had my share its time I hang up this card & continue wtih the "raising kids" card till we're done with that one & then I'm sure we'll be sad about that ending too, its sort of a bitter sweet thing with each journey ending I guess.

Just cuz it made me giggle!

HAHA! I was goin thru my pictures & come across this one of mom and dad, and it cracks me up!
It made me laugh so hard I couldn't stop. YEP this is our parents Lloyd children, WE ARE PROUD! lol. I do love you guys so much! I am so blessed with amazing, fantastic, loving parents. I often find myself missing so much being around you & being able to go over to your house and hang out on a whim. Kymbree says everyday almost that she wants to go see Grandma Aphween, cuz she has new purple shoes and she has to show her ( I have NO idea why she feels the need to show Grammie her new shoes, but she does) .
I just am so grateful for both of you, you've both given me so much in life I wont ever b able to repay you for! As I look at my children growing it always makes me laugh because I find myself doing and saying things you guys always did growing up. There's a piece of you in each of my girls and just look at what you two created..... u have pages and pages of blogs full of grandkids, grown kids, and family to show for your life together! What an awesome story you both have created.... WE LOVE YOU!!!

Time's growing closer.... & mom's in a panic

Well here we are beginning March, right? The months have gone so fast it'll b June b4 I know it! Here I am my belly growing daily, my baby moving more frequently & the reality of this situation sets in. Questions arise that I'm not ready to answer. Where u going to deliver? What u going to name the baby? What u taken to the hospital for the baby to come home in? When are you going to buy a carseat? What if its a boy and it has to use a pink blanket? Names Names Names??

I'll just say it for the record, I DONT KNOW! I DONT KNOW, I DONT KNOW! I havent really thought of any of this because its not really happening right? Its just a dream, its not really reality, lol. I mean obviously I realize that my stomach is huge, and I can't shave my legs anymore, but am I really having #5? All I can say to that is, 5 is ALOT of kids! Actually 5 isn't a whole lotta kids, but the way I've done it, IT IS alot of kids.

I just really have to give a shout out to my older two girls. WIthout them two I'd be lost, I'd loose my mind. They really help me so much, their both little mothers to Kymbree & A'jaye. Derian takes most the burden on Kymbree when she gets home. She helps me by playing with her, & helps me put her to bed & takes ALOT in cleaning up the messes she makes. THANK YOU SWEETY! She is a awesome babysitter, & its so nice to b able to go to the store and not have to take everyone with, or to go out on a date w/my husband & know that things are fine. We still get alot of phone calls but its still so nice to take a hour or two and go to dinner.

My sweet Ashlynn.... she is the best big sister to A'jaye. Ashlynn comes thru the door from school and A'jaye lights up, and runs after her to give her hugs & smacks (kisses, AJ calls them "macks") Ashlynn is so sweet with her & honestly I truly mean this from the bottom of my heart, I would NEVER b able to do this w/out my 2 older ones!!! Like Aaron told them the other night, "yea sometimes it sux being the older ones u have alot more responsibility in helping out" Derian & Ash both just smiled and Derian said.."Yea but mom owes me $45.00 in babysitting fee's so its ok" lol. I do pay her....lol. I figure i have to pay someone I may as well pay my daughter.

SO we have like 3mo left of pregnancy & although I'm catching up to reality & its smacking me hard I am so excited to meet this baby & find out what it is. I have such mixed feelings on is it a boy or is it a girl but really Aaron and I are hoping for a healthy baby and healthy delivery more then anything. Kymbree insists its a brother baby she says "it not a gurl, its a boy one" w/her finger pointed at everyone. She talks to the baby at night b4 bed, its hilarious. She'll say "boy baby you in dere, you ok, its ok sistor is here" lol. Its so cute! All my dreams tell me its a boy, but time will tell it is already what it is & that isn't changing. I promised myself I wouldn't buy anything boy or girl, but I was in Walmart the other night and they had little newborn baby jammies for $3 & I couldn't resist. I figured I could take em back, or give em away.

I know there's really no purpose to this blog posting, but I really just wanted to thank my older two baby girls for helping me so much, they really do alot and I'm forever grateful for them! I LOVE YOU BOTH!

KYMBREE KATHLEEN POULSON!!!! Get your BUTT in here!

Oh my goodness, I return to business as usual, lol. On Saturday night while I was talking to Aaron and hanging out in the bedroom watching TV the girl were all in the living room doing thir thing. Derian comes in and says, "mom, I think Kymbree just cut A'jayes ponytail off" WHAT!!!!

A'jaye had a cute little ponytail on the top of her head Saturday (sense thats all we can really do with her hair) and Kymbree got ahold of scissors and she snipped it right off at the base, GReAT!!!!

Well needless to say, it doesn't look very cute! I told A'jaye, its a dang good thing she's little and adorable otherwise we'd have an issue. I guess its just hair, and it grows back, but DANG! Kymbree is such a little stinker butt sometimes. Our household can NOT live with out that cute little girl though, even as mad as she makes us sometimes!

Here's the after math......

Mom leaves on an exclusive NO kids overnighter!

Well, my BFF (haha) talked me into going on an overnighter trip w/her & her sister. Her sister works up at Sundance just up Provo Canyon and was able to get us a cabin unit for free. We took her up on the deal and left friday night to go away for 24hrs. I think I needed this more then I thought. I had so much fun w/these two, of course I always do.

I always get anxiety whenever I leave & go overboard on getting Aaron and the kids ready, as if they can't make it a night without me there, DUH! I get there clothes all ready for the next day, and I have food all ready...and just stupid stuff that Aaron is MORE then capable of doing himself. We usually have a dozen phone calls while I'm gone between one another just because #1. we hate to b apart, or #2 they can't find something, or need something or whatever...

Well, Teneile had a plan, and it worked a little, lol. Up to Sundance there is NOT alot of cell service so it was hit and miss on the phone calls, but it turned out to be ok. I got over my anxiety issue and sorta relaxed, I had a great time. It was nice to get away.

We went to dinner at our fav place Tapenyaki's after waiting for a hour to get down the canyon because of a slide off in front of us, but other then that thigns were good, we made the best of it. WE came back to the cabin with 3 grocery sacks of JUNK/COMFORT foods, and roasted marshmellows over the fire, and had girl talk. We stayed up till 3am and just enjoyed our every moment we had away from normal life.
I was so happy to learn that Aaron had a huge sleepover himself with his daughters. They all slept in our bed friday night with him and Derian and him stayed up and watched the Jazz game together fri night. Saturday morning they all got up and he took them to breakfast at our fav place over in Spanish fork, and then he took them to walmart just to roam around and shop for fun things. If u all know Aaron, he just DOES NOT roam walmart! He's your typical guy shopper, goes in with a plan and comes out just as fast as he went in, but he was there for almost 2hours just letten the girls look around and window shop for things. They had so much fun with their daddy! I told Aaron....Gosh, I guess I should maybe do this more often, then you can all have bonding time, and I get a break! He just looked at me with the look.

Aaron's a great daddy, of course I've always thought this, but this weekend just proved it to me once again. He really gives them qualitity time, which means so much to them and to me!
I am so glad I went, it was nice, to ahve a small break away from reality and take a breather. I think every mom/women needs to do this once in awhile!

A'jaye gets in trouble!!! & the dog scores big!

So, I have some pics, and some stories to go along with it. Bare with me again, there's going to be like 3-4 NEW postings.... but again, I dont know how to post the pics w/the stories and do it all in one blog, so if someone can teach me, I'll do it that way rather then this way, but for now this works.

So, the other day, Kymbree comes running in the bedroom where I was putting away clothes & says...."MOM, JJ's is on the ounter, & deres omen noobles ebery aire" (baby talk, hope you can translate). MAN I say and go running in the kitchen. IF I forget to put the stools up on the table or up on the counter A'jaye we EVERy time climb up on the kitchen counter and play in my sugar bowl, or flour canister, or something. Usually making a mess EVERYWHERE! I usually hear here though, but this time she was a silent mess maker. I walk in and this is what I found.....

Ramen noodles everywhere that we had just had for lunch, her on the counter looken at me like..."WHAT, I didn't do anything, besides if I did, I'm cute so...like you'll get mad at me mom" and she says to me "MOMMA" and puts her hands out. I called in Zoey and she cleaned it up for me, she was all bothered by having to be the vacumn cleaner though...I'm sure she just hates situations such as this! lol. SO, here's my pics from our little mess maker, and our cleaner upper!

Tope 5 Pet Peeves......

Along time ago I was tagged with my Pet peeves....sorta like a top 10 fav's but pet peeves instead. I forgot all about that tag, till I seen a few postings done on it yesterday and remembered. I know I have more then 5 pet peeves, lol....but its much funner to think about your favorite things then your pet peeves, right? However, I'll try and play along with pet peeves....but geez, just to list 5??? I have way more then 5! Here goes.....



#1. CHOMPING, SLURPING, wierd mouth noises, figiting! Chopping & mouth noises especially while eating has ALWAYS bugged me. Then you get kids and you go thru the whole teaching them not to do it, cuz EVERY kid does it when thier learning. Now, I notice my kids telling their friends or each other at times to STOP making gross noises while they eat. When I was doing daycare alot, you get the kids a drink of water, and they'd GULP it, OMG...can we say BUG ME TO DEATH...its like nails on a chalkboard to me! I'd have to leave the room! This is a HUGE thing for me.



#2. CLUTTER! (Aaron is going to laugh when he see's this one) U know things can bug me, but at the same time and I can be guilty of them too! so there! I dont claim to be "clutter free" EVER! HELLO...I have 4, soon to b 5 kids we have clutter! However, it BUGS ME, it makes me CRaZy, InSaNE, makes me feel outta control ( I guess this would b why I feel outta control all the time). I do hate clutter. Clean to me is clutter free....no piles of crap everywhere, nothing outta its "home", nothing stacked to the ceiling..... I HATE CLUTTER its a huge pet peeve of mine even though I'm terribly guilty of it. I feel like I'm constantly dejunking my house, and de-cluttering. One day I'll get there, I SWEAR! Sometimes we are our own worst enemy, you know, but at least I can admit it too!



#3. JUDGEMENTAL ppl! Enough said about that..... It's easy to look at someone & make a judgement call. I know I used to be REALLY bad about this, but over time, and growing up & my husband showing me a better way I've learned that u can't judge someone based on ANYTHING. Until you've walked a day in their life, their minds then DONT judge them. Yes, there are obvious things that make you form a strong opinion...but at the same time we must have compassion, and understanding for everyone. It doesn't mean you have to like them, agree with them, or have anything to do w/them. Anytime I see someone, or hear of someone that has made a mistake, or has had something happen to them even at the fate of their "not so smart" decision making, it makes me feel badly, and makes me wonder what has gone on in their life that has caused them to make such horrible decisions. I'm guilty of judging, I think everyone is....no one is perfect but there is ALWAYS a reason behind ppl's bad decisions, wrong choices, & bad paths taken. It realy just makes me sad for them more then anything. I've made mistakes in my life so I've been on the being judged end of the stick plenty of times in my life & I'm very grateful for those times in my life cuz it did make me realize that judging someone is never a wise thing to do, u just don't know everything about everyone or why or what so leave them alone and be compassionate! U know, some of the BEST people I know have lived a rough life, made hard decisions, took wrong paths but looking at the "core" of who they are is much more empowering then looking at the surface of someone.



#4. HINTING around that you need or want something. JUST ASK! I get that sometimes your just feeling out a person, seeing if they might be interested (GUILTY) but at the same time if I really need something I'm not going to hint around about it hoping the other person will take the bate, I'll ASK....so should u! Like if you want a drink of water, & u know someone is going to the kitchen anyhow...instead of saying..."gosh, I really would like a glass of water, but man I dont wanna get up" THAT BUGS ME so bad, I will not bring u a glass of water just to spite you, lol. I'd prefer rather u just ask, lol.... some of the small things in life u dont need to feel around & see if someone is willing to do it for you! ASK!



#5 FAKINESS! I HATE fake ppl! Seriously I can see right thru u! I am not going to say that I havent ever done the "OH HOW ARE U, GOSH...IT SOOOO GOOD TO SEE U" thing either, but honeslty I dont take it further then that. Most the time I am glad to see them, but not happy so much to talk to them for long, lol. U know what, if you honeslty dont like someone be cordial but dont play it up all fake like! Its so funny to watch almost, but sometimes its just plane painful to watch. I get somewhat embarressed for ppl like that. If you dont like someone then why try so hard to seem likr u do, haha! I wont elaborate on this one any longer...I could get myself in trouble!



Gosh, I guess it has proven sorta difficult to come up with pet peeves, when you really think of it. It's taken me all day to come up with those 5..... I know things bug me, but I guess I dont spend all my time focusing in on them. The ones I listed are MAJOR buggers for me....and the silly thing is I'm guilty of doing them some times. (NOT CHOMPING though ....& not taking the "fake" thing to far! uh uh! WONT DO IT!) No one is perfect, we're all working towards that, right? SO I guess we just remember that ppl are ppl, & if we were all the same then think how boring life would really be? & what would we have to talk about? lol

TOP 10 things I CAN'T live without.......

I've noticed everyone in my family is doing the TOP 10 list....so I thought I'd play along too, what the hek......


TOP 10 FAVORITE THINGS...(or can't live withouts)

#10. Frozen Coke preferrably a Slurpee, but I also love the SLushi Pepsi

#9. The internet.... its my daily habit to jump online ck out blogs, ck out facebook messages, write on in my journal that I keep tucked away on my computer & pay bills, ck accts & do my emails....OH and I also love to scope out new recipe's on allrecipe.com

#8. My cell phone! nothing to explain there, I always have my cell phone with me, or by me, and if I dont have it, I feel lost! what the hek did we do b4 cell phones!!!

#7 Text messaging..... I know this goes along with cell phone but honeslty, if I didn't have that feature, or if it wasn't invented I'd also be one lost women! I LOVE texting....sometimes I prefer it to talking, u just cut to the chase, no small talk! haha

#6. Lifesaver Orange flavored mints! I LOVE these things....I buy them in huge bundles when their on sale for $1.00 then I open the bag, and go thru all the bags trying to find the "soft brittle" ones cuz they melt in your mouth and its YUMMY

#5. Coupons & clearance.....I LOVE good deals, I love being able to get a grocery cart full of groceries, then going to the ck out where it reads $60.00 & walking out there after coupons, and promotions & spending $25.00 or less its the best feeling!

#4. My friends.....I have some wonderful friends, (my mom being at the top of that friend list). They are all so sweet, supportive, and can read me almost as good as my mother!...I can be down, depressed, in the dumps & they all know that something isn't right with me w/out me saying anything. I always get a call saying..."Hey, u wanna go get a drink, and talk" I love the girlfriends that I have!

#3. My family. By this I mean my side and Aarons side. OUr parents, siblings, nieces, nephews & grandparents. We are both blessed with wonderful, suppportive & loving families. Somedays its so hard not being close by to them & being able to see them at the drop of the hat, but other days its nice to be away too, lol. Any of our family members would drop anything to help us out & have done this many times. Its sucha comfort to us & one that we sometimes take for granited. I can't imagen not having such strong family ties, and having that close connection like we do. Its defiantly something I can't live w/out in my life.

#2 MY KIDS! My sweet girls, what would I do with out them in my life. Thinking about this, takes me back to the time I sat in Aaron's arms crying because I feared the worst thing, not being able to have kids. I had so many "girl" issues that having babies wasn't going to prove an easy task. The day I found out I was pregnant w/Derian was the best day of my life! Then she was born & it was even better I finally felt complete. Then being told I wouldn't b having kids w/out the dr's help again, I just felt so lucky to have one..... then God continued to bless us w/no help from any dr's! There's days that I feel I'm going ot loose my mind but then I remember how these kids weren't suppose to happen yet we've been blessed time and time again with the sweetest spirits God could send us. We are indeed better people because of them. they each bring to our family a special quality. I LOVE my girls, & my life is complete! (well almost....as soon as #5 gets here I will DEFIANTLY be complete, lol)

#1. MY HUSBAND, my best friend! Everyday that goes by I realize more and more wonderful qualitities that my husband has. I fall deeper in love with him each day that goes by. I loved the boy I married nearly 14yrs ago, he cared, he loved me, he had goals for us, he took care of me and now that boy is a man that I respect, love & am so incredibly proud of him and who he has become. He is sucha hard worker & cares deeply for the important things in his life. The way he fathers our daughters makes my heart melt. His love for me and his girls shows in his eyes each time he see us. I defiantly CANT live with out him!

Just one more thing... I will call it #0 out of all these things in my life there's one that tops them, or rather then "topping" them all he plays a HUGE role in all the favorite things I have in my life....to my family, my kids, and my husband to my cellphone, internet, and lifesavers. I wouldn't call him "MORE important" then all of these things, but rather..... a guiding hand, a support system, the reason all these things in my life are apart of my life, and that is God. the church has said...God first, then husband, then children. God has ALWAYS been an important person in my life, I dont like to call him more important or first to my husband or children, because I see him as more of an equal partner in my life. I have made a point to pray everyday, & its a comfort to me to have that in my life, because I have a STRONG testimony of the power of prayer & God has always been apart of everything in my life. I'm so grateful for this guiding hand .... I mean, look at all he has blessed me with! I may not go to church every sunday, or be the most "religious" of ppl, but I am and consider myself to be very spiritual & thats one thing I try to instill in my girls, the power of prayer, and having God as a equal partner in your life. ITS A MUST in my book!

DIAPER HEADS!!!

HAHA! This was a random but funny thing that went on last night. We laughed and laughed, so I thought I'd share even though I said that was it for postings, this just had to b shared!

Around 5pm EVERY day Kymbree gets wild n crazy. I dont know what it is about this time of day but she just gets over stimulated, and hyper. I think what it is, is she is soooo tired that she just goes the other way fighting to stay awake. WEll, she either makes us completely crazy or she makes us laugh, or both sometimes. The older two girls were trying hard to get their house chores done before dad got home at the end of the day, and I was trying desperately to get dinner done and with all the chaoes you can imagen my mood! It gets rather loud in here around 5-6pm.....sorta reminds me of when Uncle Kevin comes to visit, lol. LOUD! So Derian had the living room and she was cleaning away while Kymbree kept pestering here as she does. She was hitting here with a diaper and then taking off running so that Derian would get mad and chase her away. It was totally a game to her that she thought was fun, but Derian didn't think it was funny at all. Sense older sissy was doing it, A'jaye had to get in on it too....it made for a really loud evening. The older two girls were mad, and frustrated, and I was on the brink of loosing my mind. Then it got quiet for a minute, we went on doing our thing, but in the back ofmy mind I was thinking..mmmm, where are those younger ones, and why is it quiet. Then, around the corner here they come.....with their get up on, and ready to fight..... Kymbree had made diaper defense for their heads....lol. We laughed so hard we nearly wet ourselves. We had to bust out the camera and take photo's of these two and their armor! ITS DIAPER HEADS!!! What was once a frustrating, noisey house turned out to be a funny thing...and we learned to just laugh. Thats what Kymbree does....she's sucha pest sometimes that she's hilarious and she defiantly keeps our house on our toes either laughing or bieng mad! This of course made us laugh!