Life has been hectic....

Ok, well.... I know I haven't been blogging lately, but I love Facebook more now. lol JK, I haven't been able to get any new pics on my computer so its hard to want to blog when you can't share photos of any of the fun stuff we've been doing.
We've done a few fun things too. We took the kids fishing and on a picnic which was just fun. We didn't go far, just down to Salem ponds, and the only thing we caught was a snapping turtle, but hey the kids had fun the rest of the day playing with this turtle, and begging us to keep it. We broke their hearts and had to tell them NO.... their dirty, stinky and THEY BITE! GEEZ! I'd have to worry about the turtle taking off a finger or something, NO THANX!
We bbq'd our favorite hamburgers for everyone and of course they were a hit, like always. Aaron is getting pretty dang good on that grill, and he loves coming up with new things, and new ways to bbq things. I love summer time cuz he cooks alot.
What else has been going on..... Aaron and the girls have a Sunday morning tradition lately. They get up and go for the "T" time on the golf course. They have so much fun too, and I love that they spend time together doing something fun that they all love to do. I guess I shouldn't say Aaron and the girls, cuz that sounds like Aaron and ALL the girls, NOPE.....he just takes the older two and that's ok, cuz they don't get a whole lot of time alone with their daddy, and they miss that sometimes. They come back all laughing together and talking about their crashing the golf cart, and daddy missing the ball... and all the awesome deer they spotted along the way. I really love it that they have fun together. I love that they spend time like that with their dad. The last two Sundays they haven't made it home in time for primary but u know what, that's ok. Family time is good time too. In fact last Sunday, they were gone from 11am and didn't get home till nearly 5pm. They did the entire 18 hole coarse and spent so much down time spotting the deer, and bunny rabbits, and wrecking the golf cart that it took forever! but they had an awesome time.
The kids got out of school and this was their first week home. I have to say that its SOOO Nice to have them here with me. My days are so much better with them all here. The older two have helped out so much entertaining the little ones. Plus they have helped me with daily chores, which has been nice. & they've had time to have some fun too, cuz they are kids, and not child slaves, lol.
Derian has spent alot of time out with her friend Ashley. She lives on a farm sorta, and they have so much fun out there. She told me it reminds her of Redmond. Ashlynn has also been spending alot of time with her friend Maggie doing sleepover's and play days. They have so much fun together. My kids have fabulous friends and that's nice for me not having to worry about who they are hanging out with. I think its going to be an amazing summer. I already have the kids on a routine, and we've stuck to it almost everyday, and it just makes things go more smoothly. We all get up get some breakfast, and get after our chores, and laundry, I've made a deal with them that they help me out till after lunch and then the day is theirs to do what they want with in reason of course, lol. Its worked out nicely, and we all seem to be in a better mood this way. I think we'll stick to it.
We recently went down to Aurora for a Lloyd Family reunion. WOW! It was sure nice to see everyone. I just kept looking at all the family thinking, what a legacy my grandparents have started, and it continues. I kept thinking about Grandpa Lloyd and how I'm sure he was looken down on all of us, with the proud face on. It sorta brought a tear to my eye as we were all gathered around the tables getten ready to surprise Grandma, she walked in and we all yelled SURPRISE.... just looking at her, I could almost see my Grandpa Lloyd next to her, walking along side her. It made me miss him.... but i know he was with us that day, and he was just as proud as ever of his family.
It was nice to see everyone. Its to bad we don't get together more often then every 15yrs or so, lol.
Well, baby is due in 11 days, or rather, not due, but is coming in 11 days regardless of whether it wants to or not. I'm having mixed feelings about it all. I go through periods that I'm excited and anxious to hold my baby and have him/her in my arms but at the same time I am scarred to death to go through it all to get this baby here. With my bad experience with A'jaye from beginning to end, I worry about it all happening again. My epidural was painful, the IV was painful, the labor was painful and scary it makes me all apprehensive. Also, I am uptight about having 5 kids, and having these last 3 so close together. I struggle so much with Kymbree and A'jaye to the point of tears some days & now I have to add another. I took the kids to the pool a couple days ago for the first time. I love going to the pool, last year we had so much fun going, and Payson has a nice facility. However, going with 2 toddlers this year instead of one, all I did was chase Kymbree and A'jaye and if one wasn't crying the other one was, and if the other wasn't running off, the other one was. I was going crazy trying to keep up with the two little ones, how the hell will I do 3 of them. I had promised the girls we'd go to the pool alot this summer cuz we all love it so much, but I'm thinking twice about that now. I hate putting some of the load on my older two, but they are so good to pitch in with out me asking. Ashlynn was so good to help me out on the way out to the car, it just made me cry, that she just took that initiative and helped me cuz she new I was so tired. I just looked at her and felt so sad that I don't have more time to give to each one of them like I want too. Someone always gets shortchanged, and its usually my older two. I had a good meltdown that night, and Aaron had to listen to me boob for ahour but I felt better.... lol. I guess I'll figure it out and do what I have to do. I don't ever remember it being this hard when Derian & Ashlynn were little I guess that proves the differences in personalities. Kymbree is just the cutest kid ever, she makes us laugh, but she also makes us cry, ALL OF US! She's just full of life....& sometimes its not so fun.
Despite how crazy I am feeling about having 5 kids to care for I do feel like all my kids are blessings, and meant to be apart of our lives and somehow Aaron and I will find the time to give them each what they need I hope. We are truly blessed with amazing kids, and each one brings a special gift to our family. YES they make me nuts, but I love them more then anything!

Sorry there's no pictures, but we'll get some up at some point. I don't know that I'll blog again before baby comes we'll save it for when baby comes.... SO until next time....

Oh wait....I do have to add that we went to the Hogle Zoo this past weekend with Aaron's sister Chrissy and her 3 awesome kids, and Grandma Sandy. I have to be honest, I really didn't want to go, I was fighting it, and trying to find an excuse to not go (sorry guys...) I just wasn't in the mood for the heat, the crowd, the walking, the dragging 4 kids out, but we went, & I have to tell you I am so glad I did. It was just a great day out with the kids and their cousins. The weather couldn't have been better, the crowd wasn't that bad, & the company was even better. A'jaye was so fun to watch as she squealed at the monkey's swinging towards her, and she'd get so excited to see all the animals. Kymbree was on good behavior and Grandma Sandy kept check on her for me (maybe that is why she was behaving well....she seems to be good for other ppl) . It was just a lot of fun, and I am so glad the kids got to spend some time together. Thanks Chrissy and Sandy for an awesome day out.... I am really glad we went.