Goodness, what a crazy two weeks we've had. After our crazy trip to Mesquite the following wkend we went camping with the Lloyds. It was fun, but I feel badly that i didn't get to visit much w/my brothers. I stayed in the camp trailor w/my mom and sister pretty much the entire time cuz A'jaye and Kymbree were sick. It wasn't really cold on friday but saturday the wind picked up and it was pretty chilly. They were already sick and I didn't want them getting worse.
The older girls had fun w/their cousins so it was worth the trip. I also got to visit alot w/my sister Chelsee which I don't get to often even though she lives 20min from me! (yes, that was a dig at you Chels, haha) I know she is extremely busy and under a ton of pressure and I have been up her way several times and didn't stop just cuz its hard w/the babies they usually are tired and want to get home or we are running late to be where we need to be. So, it was nice to be able to visit w/her. The nights in the trailer were LONG..... I don't sleep well anyhow, and A'jaye doesn't sleep unless she has her bed so it was long nights for everyone sleeping in the same trailer as us. OH WELL! We had a great time, and it was nice to b able to see everybody and do something as a family. NOW LLOYDS.....we need to do this MORE often! Its a lot of work, but its worth it to be able to spend time as a family.
Aaron, didn't go with us AGAIN....lol, he had his deer tag he had already paid for before we planned this trip. He went w/his dad and brothers down to St. George to hunt. He said he had a good time w/his brothers, dad, brother in law, and his 3 nephews. He enjoyed hanging out w/his nephews more then anything. Poor guy, doesn't get to hang w/little boys to much, lol. He didn't get a deer, but he had fun. We all returned home on that sunday evening VERY TIRED, but time well spent w/family.
I am still working on getting my computer to upload photos, hopefully SOON. I want to be able to show off my kids someday to everyone.
The week following our trip camping we were all in the sick pin, except for Derian and Ashlynn they are still free and clear. I was terribly sick sun, mon and tues....luckily for me the babies were sick too, so they didn't require to much assistance, they sorta just layed around w/me all day. We got by till daddy got home, then he took Kym, and I took A'jaye and went to sleep, cuz he was sick too. Aaron is still sick, I am feeling better and Kym is...A'jaye is still a little under the weather, but doing better.
I feel badly Trisha, that I didn't get to spend time talking to you and seeing Porter, sorry! Maybe next time.....
The girls yesterday had a Halloween party combined w/all their friends. There was about 15 little girls here ranging in age from 7-10yrs old. They had a great time and I had fun watching them have fun. They did most the work in getting it ready, and planned it, and did all the invitations. I told them if they wanted to have a party they had to do it, and they did. I was proud of them cuz they did a good job, and they were proud of what they did too. I was glad when it was over, but it was fun for them. There was some cute costumes, some scary ones, and some funny ones.....CUTE KIDS!
So thats been our life in a nutshell the past wk and a half. My house is a mess cuz I havent done anything all wk, and I am TO TIRED today, but I gotta get w/it. Aaron is at work now fixing my sisters car and working on another project he needs to get done, when he gets home we want to chill out and watch a movie w/the kids. So, I need to clean up some and make our house liveable at least.
Hope you all are doing better! I know alot of my family has been sick....SORRY if it was us that past it on...
LOTS OF LOVE to you all
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Our lives the last few days.......
Goodness, its been a busy few days. I feel like I have done nothing but run sense Thursday. Today I want to do nothing and I can't. I have a TON to do.
This past weekend we went down to Mesquite the girls and I and my mother in law Sandy. It was Aarons Grandma's 80th birthday party. She flew in from Oregon and we hardly see her so we went on down for that. It was nice for the kids to see all their cousins and they all played hard. The weather was great Friday but turned off way cold Saturday. That didn't stop the kids though, they played all day outside in the wind.
The birthday party was nice, and it was good to see everyone, but MAN...going anywhere with 4 kids is a nightmare. I guess I reminded myself why I don't go anywhere with 4 kids.
IT was all worth it when it was over. We got home late Sunday evening. We went from about 50 degree's in Mesquite to 30 degree's coming in to Utah, it was a defiant shift in temp. COLD!
Aaron went down to Colorado to hunt trophy Elk w/his dad. He got down early afternoon on Friday and went camping up these beautiful mountains. He said it was just gorgeous. Unfortunately he didn't get his dad an elk, but they really tried. He said that they had a great time, and anytime he gets to spend w/his dad is time well spent. He loves to be w/his family and spend time doing fun things w/them. He said they laughed so hard every night that his gut hurt. They left for home early Sunday morning and we beat them home by a hour and half. We were all so beat from the weekends events that we crashed at 7:30pm.
I feel badly because I took pictures of the entire weekend, we painted pumpkins, and I got pictures of our trip, BUT.... my stupid computer won't import the pictures. I downloaded a program that my dad showed me on google and now my computer won't allow the import UGGH! SO I thought I would be able to show you all pictures and I was so excited to share them. BUT NO! It isn't happening w/this pile of computer that keeps getting viruses and bugs. Its time for a new one!
So, then I have to clue you all in on our softball game last night. IF we won we went directly to the championship game that is tonight at 8pm. Just about everyone showed up to play which was nice that I didn't have to play. It was so cold! I had NO business having the kids there w/runny noses all ready, but we stuck it out. I kept saying "we're going to go" but then it was just two more innings, one more inning, and then it was over and we were OUT OF THERE! The kids hands were numb! I felt awful. Anyhow, back to the important game. We were dominating that team, killing them up to bat (we have a strong batting line up), we were up by like 10 points, and then the last inning they were up to bat and they killed us. One home run after another. We fell apart. Our entire team messed up! I don't know what happened but we fell to pieces. They got within 1 point and still had a couple batters. The other team won by 1 POINT! IT was terrible! So now tonight we have to play 3 games in order to win the entire thing instead of playing just once. We have a game at 6pm, if we win then we play at 7, and then the championship game is at 8pm. I think we can do it, especially with the really good players coming tonight we have a GREAT chance of winning it all. We are unbeatable w/the strong players. Actually, we are unbeatable w/just our players that come each time, we just fell apart that last inning, but tonight we have coming our strongest players that play alot so our chances are HIGH....w/them coming and everyone doing their part we are unstopable. SO, we are hoping we take it all, and we can still do it, we aren't out of it yet, but its just going to be harder is all. 3 GAMES...... in one night is going to tire anyone out. I will let you all know how we do.... tonight is the last of it we will either walk away with the trophy or walk away loosing it and coming in 2nd or 3rd.
That was my weekend and Monday.... its been busy, and tiring, but I guess staying busy is better for anyone. Now I have a housefull of housework, and not drive to do it! If I don't get it cleaned up I am afraid Aaron will fire me......lol!
This past weekend we went down to Mesquite the girls and I and my mother in law Sandy. It was Aarons Grandma's 80th birthday party. She flew in from Oregon and we hardly see her so we went on down for that. It was nice for the kids to see all their cousins and they all played hard. The weather was great Friday but turned off way cold Saturday. That didn't stop the kids though, they played all day outside in the wind.
The birthday party was nice, and it was good to see everyone, but MAN...going anywhere with 4 kids is a nightmare. I guess I reminded myself why I don't go anywhere with 4 kids.
IT was all worth it when it was over. We got home late Sunday evening. We went from about 50 degree's in Mesquite to 30 degree's coming in to Utah, it was a defiant shift in temp. COLD!
Aaron went down to Colorado to hunt trophy Elk w/his dad. He got down early afternoon on Friday and went camping up these beautiful mountains. He said it was just gorgeous. Unfortunately he didn't get his dad an elk, but they really tried. He said that they had a great time, and anytime he gets to spend w/his dad is time well spent. He loves to be w/his family and spend time doing fun things w/them. He said they laughed so hard every night that his gut hurt. They left for home early Sunday morning and we beat them home by a hour and half. We were all so beat from the weekends events that we crashed at 7:30pm.
I feel badly because I took pictures of the entire weekend, we painted pumpkins, and I got pictures of our trip, BUT.... my stupid computer won't import the pictures. I downloaded a program that my dad showed me on google and now my computer won't allow the import UGGH! SO I thought I would be able to show you all pictures and I was so excited to share them. BUT NO! It isn't happening w/this pile of computer that keeps getting viruses and bugs. Its time for a new one!
So, then I have to clue you all in on our softball game last night. IF we won we went directly to the championship game that is tonight at 8pm. Just about everyone showed up to play which was nice that I didn't have to play. It was so cold! I had NO business having the kids there w/runny noses all ready, but we stuck it out. I kept saying "we're going to go" but then it was just two more innings, one more inning, and then it was over and we were OUT OF THERE! The kids hands were numb! I felt awful. Anyhow, back to the important game. We were dominating that team, killing them up to bat (we have a strong batting line up), we were up by like 10 points, and then the last inning they were up to bat and they killed us. One home run after another. We fell apart. Our entire team messed up! I don't know what happened but we fell to pieces. They got within 1 point and still had a couple batters. The other team won by 1 POINT! IT was terrible! So now tonight we have to play 3 games in order to win the entire thing instead of playing just once. We have a game at 6pm, if we win then we play at 7, and then the championship game is at 8pm. I think we can do it, especially with the really good players coming tonight we have a GREAT chance of winning it all. We are unbeatable w/the strong players. Actually, we are unbeatable w/just our players that come each time, we just fell apart that last inning, but tonight we have coming our strongest players that play alot so our chances are HIGH....w/them coming and everyone doing their part we are unstopable. SO, we are hoping we take it all, and we can still do it, we aren't out of it yet, but its just going to be harder is all. 3 GAMES...... in one night is going to tire anyone out. I will let you all know how we do.... tonight is the last of it we will either walk away with the trophy or walk away loosing it and coming in 2nd or 3rd.
That was my weekend and Monday.... its been busy, and tiring, but I guess staying busy is better for anyone. Now I have a housefull of housework, and not drive to do it! If I don't get it cleaned up I am afraid Aaron will fire me......lol!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Decision making begins.....
Well, I have decided with my dear husbands support (because I WILL NEED IT!) to go back to school this winter quarter. I want to get started quickly. We found out that my degree from Provo College (that was useless for the longest time) in business management Associates Degree can now be transferred so I can use it at other colleges to put me further ahead by 2yrs. Which was sorta the push I needed. Even better is that my grades were at a 3.8 or higher for the two years I attended so I may be able to get scholarships as well.
I am going back to school to get my Master's In Psychology. I am finally going to do what I have kicked myself for NOT doing in the first place. I have ALWAYS wanted to do counseling sense I was about a junior in high school. It just seemed so long and I guess I didn't believe in myself enough to do it and make it. I have sense realized that you should do in life what you have a passion and drive for because it makes you WANT to do it, and learn about it because the passion is there. I also feel that my life experiences will only help me be a better Psychologist and maybe I needed those life experiences first before beginning this road.
I have always had an interest in the mind. I don't know that I am good at it, but I know I have a passion and drive to learn about it like I have never had for anything before. I have struggled with this decision, not because it is going to be hard, and not because it will take awhile, but because I feel guilty. I feel guilty because I am a mother of four beautiful girls that need me & I am going after something that will make me happy, make me feel proud of myself, and make me feel a success that I crave. I guess it sounds selfish, and mothers need to be self-less, not selfish. I think to myself WHY can't I just put that energy and passion into my girls and family to make my family successful and my girls confident and set them up for a successful path in life, that should bring me the success I crave, it should make me proud of my life and I should have a passion for that more instead.
Although its true that guiding my family down a successful road would bring me a sense of accomplishment and make me feel proud, make my husband proud and all that good stuff I guess I decided that if I feel fulfilled in my life then I am happier, which makes my girls happier. It also shows my girls that they can do anything they want to do no matter if they are a mother or not. I guess I am sorta feeling like lately more then ever that I am dead inside and I need something to make me feel alive, not that my kids and family don't do that for me but I think that by doing this it will make me a better mother. I tend to do better when I am busy with things, it keeps me driven and going, when I have nothing really to do then I become stagnant. I also just feel, and have felt for soooo long in my heart strongly that there is a reason I have to do this. I don't know for sure what that reason is, but all I know is the drive to do this is STRONG, its a burning in my heart telling me that I NEED TO DO THIS, its what I am meant to do, and there is NO reason I can't do both. Sure it will be very hard, but it will be very worth it.
It will take me about 4yrs to get all the way thru, and then theres internships and things like that you have to go thru clinicals and then pass your state boards to practice. There's lots of decisions I have to make like where I am going to go. I know alot of colleges are offering night classes, and online courses, which from what I have found out quite a bit of the classes I can take online, but there are alot that I don't want to. I would rather take them in class, but some of the less important ones I can take online, with no problem. I know I will be busy the next few months figuring out the details and putting together all the details so I can get on with this. IF I would have started this when I first started looking into it I would be two years into it already, DANG! So, I decided last night with my husband that its time to stop putting off this desire. A very good friend of mine said once to me and it has never left my mind it pertains to going to school.... he said, "You have to live those years anyhow, they will pass you by no matter what, so why not do something with those years" This quote has been running thru my mind for the past 2yrs, so its time to stop hoping, dreaming and wishing, and ACTING on my desire to do this. Its a long journey but a journey that I will enjoy every step of the way, and when I can walk across the stage with my degree it will be a happy day. I figured out last night that when I graduate Derian will be about 14, almost 15, Ashlynn will be 13, Kymbree will be about 8 and A'jaye will be 6. My only hope is that I will be able to find the balance between school and family.
Here are some of the reasons that helped me with the decision to GO FOR IT........
* My passion for this is extremely high
* The burning in my heart telling me that this is what I am meant to do
* My husband telling me he would support me all the way.... (this was a huge thing for me)
* I am only getting older, and I dont want to look back at 45 having regrets
* I want to contribute to my families dreams and hopes for the future instead of putting it all on my husband's shoulders to fulfill those hopes
* When my kids are grown and gone, what will I have? Yes, I will have my family still, but I don't want regrets that I didn't do this
* Because I can't help myself sometimes in giving my opinions and unsolicited advice on marriage problems, personal problems, etc..... why not be able to do it without my husband looking at me like...."BABE, quit being Dr. Phil" haha ( I had to throw this in there)
SO, here we go........................ I am not looking back!
I am going back to school to get my Master's In Psychology. I am finally going to do what I have kicked myself for NOT doing in the first place. I have ALWAYS wanted to do counseling sense I was about a junior in high school. It just seemed so long and I guess I didn't believe in myself enough to do it and make it. I have sense realized that you should do in life what you have a passion and drive for because it makes you WANT to do it, and learn about it because the passion is there. I also feel that my life experiences will only help me be a better Psychologist and maybe I needed those life experiences first before beginning this road.
I have always had an interest in the mind. I don't know that I am good at it, but I know I have a passion and drive to learn about it like I have never had for anything before. I have struggled with this decision, not because it is going to be hard, and not because it will take awhile, but because I feel guilty. I feel guilty because I am a mother of four beautiful girls that need me & I am going after something that will make me happy, make me feel proud of myself, and make me feel a success that I crave. I guess it sounds selfish, and mothers need to be self-less, not selfish. I think to myself WHY can't I just put that energy and passion into my girls and family to make my family successful and my girls confident and set them up for a successful path in life, that should bring me the success I crave, it should make me proud of my life and I should have a passion for that more instead.
Although its true that guiding my family down a successful road would bring me a sense of accomplishment and make me feel proud, make my husband proud and all that good stuff I guess I decided that if I feel fulfilled in my life then I am happier, which makes my girls happier. It also shows my girls that they can do anything they want to do no matter if they are a mother or not. I guess I am sorta feeling like lately more then ever that I am dead inside and I need something to make me feel alive, not that my kids and family don't do that for me but I think that by doing this it will make me a better mother. I tend to do better when I am busy with things, it keeps me driven and going, when I have nothing really to do then I become stagnant. I also just feel, and have felt for soooo long in my heart strongly that there is a reason I have to do this. I don't know for sure what that reason is, but all I know is the drive to do this is STRONG, its a burning in my heart telling me that I NEED TO DO THIS, its what I am meant to do, and there is NO reason I can't do both. Sure it will be very hard, but it will be very worth it.
It will take me about 4yrs to get all the way thru, and then theres internships and things like that you have to go thru clinicals and then pass your state boards to practice. There's lots of decisions I have to make like where I am going to go. I know alot of colleges are offering night classes, and online courses, which from what I have found out quite a bit of the classes I can take online, but there are alot that I don't want to. I would rather take them in class, but some of the less important ones I can take online, with no problem. I know I will be busy the next few months figuring out the details and putting together all the details so I can get on with this. IF I would have started this when I first started looking into it I would be two years into it already, DANG! So, I decided last night with my husband that its time to stop putting off this desire. A very good friend of mine said once to me and it has never left my mind it pertains to going to school.... he said, "You have to live those years anyhow, they will pass you by no matter what, so why not do something with those years" This quote has been running thru my mind for the past 2yrs, so its time to stop hoping, dreaming and wishing, and ACTING on my desire to do this. Its a long journey but a journey that I will enjoy every step of the way, and when I can walk across the stage with my degree it will be a happy day. I figured out last night that when I graduate Derian will be about 14, almost 15, Ashlynn will be 13, Kymbree will be about 8 and A'jaye will be 6. My only hope is that I will be able to find the balance between school and family.
Here are some of the reasons that helped me with the decision to GO FOR IT........
* My passion for this is extremely high
* The burning in my heart telling me that this is what I am meant to do
* My husband telling me he would support me all the way.... (this was a huge thing for me)
* I am only getting older, and I dont want to look back at 45 having regrets
* I want to contribute to my families dreams and hopes for the future instead of putting it all on my husband's shoulders to fulfill those hopes
* When my kids are grown and gone, what will I have? Yes, I will have my family still, but I don't want regrets that I didn't do this
* Because I can't help myself sometimes in giving my opinions and unsolicited advice on marriage problems, personal problems, etc..... why not be able to do it without my husband looking at me like...."BABE, quit being Dr. Phil" haha ( I had to throw this in there)
SO, here we go........................ I am not looking back!
Monday, October 6, 2008
WE WON THE BALLGAME!!!
SO tonight is Aaron's Company Softball team league games, and its the finals. THis has been family tradition now for gosh, 4yrs or so. He has organized, and coached the company team for the last two jobs he has worked at. 2yrs ago we won the tournament which was great. Last year wasn't such a good year for us but we played and had fun.
Well, this year he organized and is coaching again Central Autobody Softball team and he loves it. Even though we are more out of shape and a little older we still love it. I am not a every game player but I come ready to play at every game. The girls love to go and play around while we watch the game, eating ballpark hotdogs and nacho's. Its become what we do for our monday night family night, I guess.
Well tonight I showed up NOT wanting to play at all, but Aaron calls me as I am pulling in and tells me to hurry up I am going to have to fill in..."MAN, I DONT want to play" the girls were anry, tired and hungry and the older two were not happy about having to help out with the youngens, but o well, what you gonna do?
Anyhow we had a game at 6pm. We were behind and it wasn't looking good. We had holes all over in our outfield and was short handed. Aaron sticks me out in outfield between him and another guy because I SUCK! lol.... and they have to cover me, but thats ok, I can hustle if I need to. IT so wasn't looking good and finally we picked up speed and started playing well. WE didn't have a good defense but we kicked their butts at bat.
We ended up winning the game which pushed us up a bracket, and meant another game we had to play tonight at 9pm. I told Aaron he better hope someone showed up to take my place because the girls were tired, and COLD! My goodness fall is in the air!
Well luckily he did get some one to cover me, but we decided to stick around and watch, so we thought. We had about a hour before it started so we tried to kill time, but as time grew later the girls just couldn't hold out and Aaron insisted I go home with them beings how cold it was. I didn't argue, however Ashlynn decided to stay with her dad and hang out. We both agreed she could stay this once.
Well he just called me and said they WON THE GAME! YEAY!!!!!!!! That means we are ONE MORE game closer to winning the tournament which would just be awesome. I will keep you all posted on our winnings. We play again next Monday at 8pm if we win then we go to the final game. I am certain we will get at least to the final game because we have an amazing team, and what makes it even more amazing is we are really good friends and co-workers. We have played with most of these people for 3-4yrs. I hope we win, Aaron says he doesn't care as long as they have fun and stay at least competitive (he hates to be swept), but I know he does care, he wants the trophy to take back to the shop, I know he does! What a guy (wink)!
Well, this year he organized and is coaching again Central Autobody Softball team and he loves it. Even though we are more out of shape and a little older we still love it. I am not a every game player but I come ready to play at every game. The girls love to go and play around while we watch the game, eating ballpark hotdogs and nacho's. Its become what we do for our monday night family night, I guess.
Well tonight I showed up NOT wanting to play at all, but Aaron calls me as I am pulling in and tells me to hurry up I am going to have to fill in..."MAN, I DONT want to play" the girls were anry, tired and hungry and the older two were not happy about having to help out with the youngens, but o well, what you gonna do?
Anyhow we had a game at 6pm. We were behind and it wasn't looking good. We had holes all over in our outfield and was short handed. Aaron sticks me out in outfield between him and another guy because I SUCK! lol.... and they have to cover me, but thats ok, I can hustle if I need to. IT so wasn't looking good and finally we picked up speed and started playing well. WE didn't have a good defense but we kicked their butts at bat.
We ended up winning the game which pushed us up a bracket, and meant another game we had to play tonight at 9pm. I told Aaron he better hope someone showed up to take my place because the girls were tired, and COLD! My goodness fall is in the air!
Well luckily he did get some one to cover me, but we decided to stick around and watch, so we thought. We had about a hour before it started so we tried to kill time, but as time grew later the girls just couldn't hold out and Aaron insisted I go home with them beings how cold it was. I didn't argue, however Ashlynn decided to stay with her dad and hang out. We both agreed she could stay this once.
Well he just called me and said they WON THE GAME! YEAY!!!!!!!! That means we are ONE MORE game closer to winning the tournament which would just be awesome. I will keep you all posted on our winnings. We play again next Monday at 8pm if we win then we go to the final game. I am certain we will get at least to the final game because we have an amazing team, and what makes it even more amazing is we are really good friends and co-workers. We have played with most of these people for 3-4yrs. I hope we win, Aaron says he doesn't care as long as they have fun and stay at least competitive (he hates to be swept), but I know he does care, he wants the trophy to take back to the shop, I know he does! What a guy (wink)!
Life w/my 2yr old........
Oh my goodness. We are about 2months into the school year now and I am ready to loose my mind. I've decided that being home with just Kymbree, an ambitious two year old and my 11mo old baby, A'jaye whom is content to play quietly IF only she could...... her sister won't seem to leave her alone for more then a minute so it leaves A'jaye screaming for help and Kymbree loving it that she has accomplished her goal of making her cry LOUD!
I don't know how a sweet, little, blonde haired 2yr old girl can make me laugh and cry all in the same breath. SERIOUSLY! How is that she can have such control of me? Ok, ok.... I get it...I ALLOW her too. I buy in to that comment to some degree, BUT I also have to say that from day one this child has just been a challenging one to deal with. I mean, really, I had two babies back to back, two in diapers at age 23 & DID IT ALONE for 5yrs with them just about. (just for the record, I wasn't divorced, separated or without my dear husband entirely, he was working out of town and at home on weekends only, and working a part time weekend job too, so he was NEVER home, but not by choice) and I did not have NEAR the hard time coping with them as I have these two babies that are 23 & 2wks apart (yep you got the math right, almost 2yrs apart to the day) and with my husband by my side every evening and weekends.
I will admit to all the world right here right now, I AM DEFEATED by a little, blonde hair, grey eyed, sweet munchkin butt 2yr old toddler. Some days I cry, some days I laugh, some days I do both. Aaron and I were talking the other night about the differences in the two sets of kids that are almost 5yrs apart. Two families almost it seems. We have Derian and Ashlynn whom are 19 months apart raising them both up was enjoyable. They were and still are (at times) best friends. I never regreted for a minute having them close together even when I was told how hard it would be. IT wasn't hard at all, I for awhile, even recommended it to people (can you believe it). I have sense retracted my recommendation because I've realized along with my husband that EVERY set of two children, 5yrs apart ARE indeed different. OR....... is it that the parents have changed?
Aaron will tell me that I am not as strict with Kymbree or A'jaye as I was with the first two. Maybe that is true, maybe not, I don't know. I do know that with Derian and Ashlynn I don't feel that I took enough time out to cuddle, kiss, love and play with them and so when Kymbree came along I had realized that they are only little once and I wanted to enjoy that more......however I took it OVER THE TOP. HOw??? Well, Kymbree didn't even attempt to sleep in her own bed till she was well over 18mo. I nursed her till well over a year old (which isn't a bad thing), and she rules the house TO MUCH! With A'jaye I learned from my mistakes with Kymbree and I don't allow her access to our bed and she has slept in her crib from day one, just fine. However I take time to love, and cuddle, kiss and play with her just fine. I guess I learned how to balance discipline and love.
I never thought that I needed Super Nanny but now I have admitted that I may indeed need her! My two year old, although sweet as can be, RUNS ALL OVER ME! and is SASSY, BOSSY, SPOILED, but soooooo hilariously entertaining too. I guess I will take pride in the fact that although she is a monster child for me SHE DOES obey and do well in other ppl's care. So respect, she has, and sweet she is, good for her mom, SHE IS NOT!
All in all, we love her, and we couldn't make it thru life without her! My little Kymee K..... the one that says.... "you meany mommy, YOUR MEAN MOMMY, I Wuv you meany mommy" (all with a scowl on her face) GOTTA LOVE HER!
I don't know how a sweet, little, blonde haired 2yr old girl can make me laugh and cry all in the same breath. SERIOUSLY! How is that she can have such control of me? Ok, ok.... I get it...I ALLOW her too. I buy in to that comment to some degree, BUT I also have to say that from day one this child has just been a challenging one to deal with. I mean, really, I had two babies back to back, two in diapers at age 23 & DID IT ALONE for 5yrs with them just about. (just for the record, I wasn't divorced, separated or without my dear husband entirely, he was working out of town and at home on weekends only, and working a part time weekend job too, so he was NEVER home, but not by choice) and I did not have NEAR the hard time coping with them as I have these two babies that are 23 & 2wks apart (yep you got the math right, almost 2yrs apart to the day) and with my husband by my side every evening and weekends.
I will admit to all the world right here right now, I AM DEFEATED by a little, blonde hair, grey eyed, sweet munchkin butt 2yr old toddler. Some days I cry, some days I laugh, some days I do both. Aaron and I were talking the other night about the differences in the two sets of kids that are almost 5yrs apart. Two families almost it seems. We have Derian and Ashlynn whom are 19 months apart raising them both up was enjoyable. They were and still are (at times) best friends. I never regreted for a minute having them close together even when I was told how hard it would be. IT wasn't hard at all, I for awhile, even recommended it to people (can you believe it). I have sense retracted my recommendation because I've realized along with my husband that EVERY set of two children, 5yrs apart ARE indeed different. OR....... is it that the parents have changed?
Aaron will tell me that I am not as strict with Kymbree or A'jaye as I was with the first two. Maybe that is true, maybe not, I don't know. I do know that with Derian and Ashlynn I don't feel that I took enough time out to cuddle, kiss, love and play with them and so when Kymbree came along I had realized that they are only little once and I wanted to enjoy that more......however I took it OVER THE TOP. HOw??? Well, Kymbree didn't even attempt to sleep in her own bed till she was well over 18mo. I nursed her till well over a year old (which isn't a bad thing), and she rules the house TO MUCH! With A'jaye I learned from my mistakes with Kymbree and I don't allow her access to our bed and she has slept in her crib from day one, just fine. However I take time to love, and cuddle, kiss and play with her just fine. I guess I learned how to balance discipline and love.
I never thought that I needed Super Nanny but now I have admitted that I may indeed need her! My two year old, although sweet as can be, RUNS ALL OVER ME! and is SASSY, BOSSY, SPOILED, but soooooo hilariously entertaining too. I guess I will take pride in the fact that although she is a monster child for me SHE DOES obey and do well in other ppl's care. So respect, she has, and sweet she is, good for her mom, SHE IS NOT!
All in all, we love her, and we couldn't make it thru life without her! My little Kymee K..... the one that says.... "you meany mommy, YOUR MEAN MOMMY, I Wuv you meany mommy" (all with a scowl on her face) GOTTA LOVE HER!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
TAG WHO AM I......
Tagged.....Who Am I
It's who I am ....I am... who I am take it or leave it, like me or hate me.
I Want.... to be a better wife, and mother and I want to go back to school
I Have.... the most supportive, and easy going husband, and my kids are amazing
I Wish..... I could learn to communicate better with my husband I SUCK at it!
I Hate... messy and disorganized, yet my life is full of clutter and disorganization.
I Fear... what lies ahead for the future, loosing any of my family, not raising my kids to be the best they can be, & war
I Hear.... quietness....O CRAP, I better ck on the kids, NOTHING good comes of quiet in a house full of kids!
I Search... for ways to better myself, I search for inner strength, and I search for shoes for Kymbree even though she has a dozen pairs.
I Always... tell my husband I love him whenever we part, and before I go to sleep.
I Usually... go to the gym every morning at 5a.m.
I Am Not... the best wife or mother, though I am trying to do better
I miss ....moments alone with my husband, living in Redmond and hanging with my mom whenever I want to.
I Sing... in the car....alone or not.
I Never... am nice to myself
I Rarely... go to sleep without first staring at my husband and thinking how much I love him b4 I go to sleep. I also rarely get out and do something fun.....
I Cry... alone more then I cry to others or around others
I am Not Always... the best person I can be.
I Lose... my freaking Driver's License all the time
I'm confused..... about how to raise a self respecting, secure, daughter, and I have 4 of them!
I Need... to clean my house and be more militant about my kids helping me clean and do chores
I Should... not be on the internet right now, but rather cleaning and doing laundry
I Dream... of being the best mom, and wife, and being a sucessful counselor for families and couples
I tag Maradee and Amanda.....
It's who I am ....I am... who I am take it or leave it, like me or hate me.
I Want.... to be a better wife, and mother and I want to go back to school
I Have.... the most supportive, and easy going husband, and my kids are amazing
I Wish..... I could learn to communicate better with my husband I SUCK at it!
I Hate... messy and disorganized, yet my life is full of clutter and disorganization.
I Fear... what lies ahead for the future, loosing any of my family, not raising my kids to be the best they can be, & war
I Hear.... quietness....O CRAP, I better ck on the kids, NOTHING good comes of quiet in a house full of kids!
I Search... for ways to better myself, I search for inner strength, and I search for shoes for Kymbree even though she has a dozen pairs.
I Always... tell my husband I love him whenever we part, and before I go to sleep.
I Usually... go to the gym every morning at 5a.m.
I Am Not... the best wife or mother, though I am trying to do better
I miss ....moments alone with my husband, living in Redmond and hanging with my mom whenever I want to.
I Sing... in the car....alone or not.
I Never... am nice to myself
I Rarely... go to sleep without first staring at my husband and thinking how much I love him b4 I go to sleep. I also rarely get out and do something fun.....
I Cry... alone more then I cry to others or around others
I am Not Always... the best person I can be.
I Lose... my freaking Driver's License all the time
I'm confused..... about how to raise a self respecting, secure, daughter, and I have 4 of them!
I Need... to clean my house and be more militant about my kids helping me clean and do chores
I Should... not be on the internet right now, but rather cleaning and doing laundry
I Dream... of being the best mom, and wife, and being a sucessful counselor for families and couples
I tag Maradee and Amanda.....
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Grandparents day.....
Well today was grandparents day at Barnett Elementary. The third graders all invited their grandparents to school for a small program and lunch. My mom and dad came up for the occassion. Derian was delighted. She woke up and said to me..."mom I have to look extra nice" Of course she looked beautfiul as always.
Derian wants to thank grandma and grandpa Lloyd for coming up from Aurora to have lunch with her and watch her in her program. It meant a lot to Derian. I remember when I was that age and had grandparents day at the school. I was sad that my Grandpa Lloyd wasn't there, but I knew that he was in heaven looking down on the moment. Its wierd to think that I now have a 3rd grader....man how time flies.
I PROMISE PROMISE to get some pictures up of my kids and events that happen in our life. I just need to get a picture program for my computer then we will be set to go.......
Derian wants to thank grandma and grandpa Lloyd for coming up from Aurora to have lunch with her and watch her in her program. It meant a lot to Derian. I remember when I was that age and had grandparents day at the school. I was sad that my Grandpa Lloyd wasn't there, but I knew that he was in heaven looking down on the moment. Its wierd to think that I now have a 3rd grader....man how time flies.
I PROMISE PROMISE to get some pictures up of my kids and events that happen in our life. I just need to get a picture program for my computer then we will be set to go.......
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