Well this week is over, and we can breath a sigh of relief a little. All the prayers, and fasting did help and God came thru for our little A'jaye.
Her valve pressure number when we had her tested was at 98, normal is 20 so as you can see her number was way to high. It was no doubt that we had to go in and fix it, something that Aaron and I new that we would have to have done at some point we just were hoping that we could get her thru infancy before we needed to do this.
We took her to Primary Childrens along with Grandma Sandy, Grandma and Grandpa Lloyd & Grandpa Kurt along side with us, and all our other family back home praying for her. Aaron and I had a break down the night before surgery and held each other as we cried and let all our frustration and fear out. We had been so aunry all week and we finally let it out.... we didn't sleep at all and got up early to give her a blessing and head out all together. We arrived there at 10am check in time, and got called back right on time. She couldn't eat anything after 830 and I was so worried she'd be hungary but she did really good. She was so cute, with the nurses, and dr's and was just in a good mood, UNTIL..... the lab nurses came in, to take blood and do her IV. I was so angry at this point because they told me from the beginning they wouldn't stick her IV in until after she was asleep so when they came in to take her blood they thought they might as well do it then, I WAS MAD! but Aaron kept me calm so I didn't knock a nurse out. This broke my heart.... it took them awhile and alot of tears to get it in, and she wasn't happy. Every dr that came in to see her she would show them her IV, and tell them off...it was hilarious. So then it came time to take her down to the surgery room. This is what I dreaded from day one. We met all the team, and they showed us throughly what would happen and what they would do. Then I had to say good bye. She went right to the nurse and waved bye bye to me, and I sobbed all the way back up to the waiting room. We were both so scared. They told us it would take 2hours and they would page us when she was done, or if anything happened.
We decided with our family we would go grab a bite to eat so we headed to the cafateria. We all got lunch and just as we were finishing up the pager went off. It had only been a half hour. Aaron and I dropped what we were doing and ran. We didn't know what was going on. We knew her numbers were bad so we new they couldn't be done. I told myself as I took the elevator down to the surgery room that if I seen nurses and dr's running around I would flip but until I seen there was chaoes I would keep calm.
We walked nervously up to the doors and rang the bell....out came her nurse, she made eye contact with us so we new it wasn't bad. She smiled and said..."Good news, her pressure number is back down to a high normal (40) so they didn't go in and do anything" My heart calmed back down, and Aaron sighed a big relief. The Dr came out and just smiled and said, we aren't doing a thing. She looks good and its more risky to go in then it is to leave it alone for now."
Part of me was happy, and relieved and the other half was saying....MAN, so do we have to go thru this again in 2months, JUST FIX IT!
But I know that its a very risky procedure on such a small baby and the older she is the better chance it has to work. I just hate to see her go thru this. They wheeled her out, and I looked at her as she went by me... she looked so calm, and angelic laying there. I touched her face as they wheeled her by, but couldn't go with her just yet cuz the dr was still talking to us. He looked at me and smiled and said, "dont worry mom, they will take good care of her"
He then took us up to the recovery room where she would wake up. Aaron and I walked in to this room and there were all these kids, some sick, some hurt and parents holding their hands. I thought to myself "I AM BLESSED, my baby is fine, and things could be far worse" I waited for her to wake up, while Aaron went out to explain what was going on to our parents. She woke up and looked at me and wanted me to hold her. She looked down at the dang IV and cussed me again for it still being there. It didn't take her long to recover and shake off the medicine they'd given her and we were on our way in less then a hour for home.
I was holding her as we walked out of there, and all around us was kids and parents you could tell some were just so sick and I looked back and my family behind us, and just felt this overwhelming love and thought to myself, "at least my baby is coming home with me, we are leaving happy"
I know that she still will have to go thru some tuff things, and Aaron and I will have to be there going thru it with her hoping that we could just do it for her, but we know that her condition is fixable and very manageable so for that I feel blessed.
A'jaye has such a special spirit about her. Her smile lights up the room, and you can't help but smile or laugh every time she grins at you with her two single teeth and her eyes lit up. She was sent to us for some reason to be apart of our lives, and our family, maybe to teach us patience and faith, ..... maybe to teach us to be more appreciative of life and our blessings. Whatever the reason she was sent to us to raise and love we are so thankful for her and the light she brings to our family. She feels our life with love, and happiness just as all our other girls do.
Aaron and I are very blessed parents......
Thank you to all our family that prayed, and fasted for A'jaye I know that prayers are answered and that God had a hand in delaying this surgery for A'jayes sake.
So for now we just monitor her, and hope that she can wait till she is older to do anything else.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
OH MY!
Well its wed Sept 24th. Tomorrow is A'jaye's surgery and I am now forced to deal with the emotions of it all. I don't want to! I have avoided the subject, I have avoided the thoughts and now its here and I have no choice but to go there in my mind. I have been relatively calm about it suprisingly but its also not been something I like to think about at all either.
I know that I am calm about it because I feel that she will be fine and that things will work out fine. My only fear is I don't want her to experience any pain, or discomfort, and I also fear that she will have to go thru far more then we want her to have to go thru. I don't want her to have to go thru a ton of procedures, and surgeries to get it right. So I just hope that things will work out and she won't have to worry about anything after this point.
I have spent more time down on my knees in prayer then I have in a long time. I have a lot of faith that things will be ok, and I have comfort in my heart that things will be fine but you still, as a mother, have those fears and doubts.
Aaron and I went out to a concert last weekend for his birthday, and it was nice to just not worry or think about it for an evening. Although it was his birthday, I needed the out more then anything. I feel like a brick is on my head and the nerves in the pit of my stomach are horrible. As my dad & mom always say, its just a bump in the road. Hopefully this "bump" will not turn into a huge boulder, but I have faith that it won't and we will all come out of this a little stronger and a lot more greatfu for the things we are blessed with.
I know that I am calm about it because I feel that she will be fine and that things will work out fine. My only fear is I don't want her to experience any pain, or discomfort, and I also fear that she will have to go thru far more then we want her to have to go thru. I don't want her to have to go thru a ton of procedures, and surgeries to get it right. So I just hope that things will work out and she won't have to worry about anything after this point.
I have spent more time down on my knees in prayer then I have in a long time. I have a lot of faith that things will be ok, and I have comfort in my heart that things will be fine but you still, as a mother, have those fears and doubts.
Aaron and I went out to a concert last weekend for his birthday, and it was nice to just not worry or think about it for an evening. Although it was his birthday, I needed the out more then anything. I feel like a brick is on my head and the nerves in the pit of my stomach are horrible. As my dad & mom always say, its just a bump in the road. Hopefully this "bump" will not turn into a huge boulder, but I have faith that it won't and we will all come out of this a little stronger and a lot more greatfu for the things we are blessed with.
Monday, September 22, 2008
The story of our life......
Some friends and family have now got me blogging..... Here is a little bit about our family.
Aaron and just celebrated our 13th wedding anniversary, that makes us being together for nearly 17yrs! (HOLY COW!) We are more in love now then we have ever been, and our relationship just keeps getting better and better. WE are best friends and enjoy each other's company at the end of the long day. We moved to Payson Dec 04, almost one year after our house in Redmond was lost in a fire. WE love it here but wish that we had more family around us closer.
Aaron has been working at Central Autobody as the General Manager now for almost 4yrs. He loves what he does and he has worked really hard and made lots of sacrafices to be where he is at today in this inudstry. He has always enjoyed fixing wrecked cars and now he enjoys running the shop even more. I am really proud of him, and although he is very humble and would never admit it (so I will for him) he is one of the most respected managers in Utah County and very well known among insurance agencies through out Utah. He is trusted, respected, and very much appreciated because of the hard work he puts forth EVERY day. He always goes the extra mile no matter what and I am just so proud of him. It makes me crazy some days because he does go the extra mile and it makes him work long hours but he provides well for our family and for that I am greatful.
When he is home, however, he is home and doesn't let work get in the way of our family. He is a great father to his 4 little girls and an amazing husband to me. He is involved in a lot of different things he does a bowling league, he coaches and plays on the company softball team, and he golfs at charity events and businesss tournaments. He stays very active yet is really grounded.
As for myself I have been running a daycare sense 05. I started out with 13 kids I was watching, now I have cut back to only 4 part time plus my 4. It brings in a little extra and keeps me busy. I have been making a point the last 6 mo to get healthy and make my family healthier too. I enjoy excersising daily. I go to the gym almost every morning at 5a.m. I know that sounds so early, but it really does relax me. Its sorta my break from it all and I can clear my head. Its more therapuetic then anything. I have beent rying to eat healthier and loose weight, and just be fit. It has given me something to do for myself and i have really enjoyed it. Life is busy with the kids but I do try to get out at least once a month with my friends, and Aaron and I try to go on a date at least 2 times a month. We still try to date each other as often as possible it keeps us refreshed and gets us out away from the kids.
Our kids are our life and we feel so blessed that we have amazing kids. Derian is our oldest. She just turned 9 in July. I can't believe we have a 9yr old it seems like yesterday that we had her. She thinks its really wierd that she was born in the hospital we now live behind yet we were living in Redmond at the time. It is sorta ironic. She is a ver sweet little girl that is turning into an amazing young lady. She is very gifted and talented and will do well no matter what she does in her life. She is very smart and is at the top of her class every year. Last year she got so many rewards that it took up our entire fridge. She enjoys school and doing well in it. She is a good artist, very creative, and loves to learn new things. She enjoys her friends and is so sweet to everyone. She is a good helper to me with the little ones even if she doesn't want to. She's a people pleaser & her and I are very close. I hope as she gets older we can continue to keep that bond.
Next is our little Ashlynn. She turned 7 in April and she is my beautiful brown eyed blonde. She is very active and loves gymnastics. She to is very smart and works hard to learn in school. She's a bit shy, yet very outspoken and not afraid to speak her mind when she needs to. I would say she is very honest, and sometimes honesty isn't always the best policy,.... (i.e... like telling someone there shirt is to short, or their hair looks like they just woke up). She is very curious and loves to find out things about bugs, and icky things like why people burp. She is a very loving older sister too even when she doesn't want to be. She's very protective of her two baby sisters and keeps a close eye on them usually beating me to the stairs to save the baby. She's very ender hearted and needs a lot of love and attention. I am proud of her and the little lady she is becoming.
Then our little Kymbree Kathleen. OH me Oh MY! THis child is the cutest, sweetest, yet stuborn and thick headed all in the same hour. She is my fit throwing, in the grocery store screaming kid. I usually DONT take her grocery shopping because she is all over the place, always making new friends with other shoppers. She is very friendly and not shy at all, and she has been that way from a very young age. She will go up and talk to anyone and she's so cute, with a little screachy voice you can't resist talking to her. She is going to b a very talented gymnast someday she already has so much talent and she just barely started classes. She is very strong and shows so much interest in it. She still sleeps with mom and dad which sometimes its so nice to have her cuddled up next to me and other nights I just want her outta there, but we try to cherish every moment because the grow so fast. We know that Kymbree is going to go far in life she is mean and stubborn enough to get there!
Last, my sweet A'jaye. She is such a good baby. She will play contently for hours on the floor as long as Kymbree will leave her alone. She is cuddly and her smile lights up a room. She has the prettiest eyes the shine when she smiles. We just love her and she was a good way to end our family. She is such a blessing to us and I can tell already she has such a strong spirit.
I think thats all of us..... Well I guess I forgot the new addition to the family, Zoey the Boxer pup. We got her in June and she is now 7 or 8 mo old. She's just a pup but she is going to be a good dog. She loves the kids and loves to play soccer with them. She waits and waits for them to get home from school. She's been a good addition to our family. Sometimes I kick myself because it is one more thing to take care of and clean up after but my kids love her to pieces and that makes it all worth it.
Well enough is enough! I love bragging about my family....... I am one lucky women, and our family is very blessed.
Aaron and just celebrated our 13th wedding anniversary, that makes us being together for nearly 17yrs! (HOLY COW!) We are more in love now then we have ever been, and our relationship just keeps getting better and better. WE are best friends and enjoy each other's company at the end of the long day. We moved to Payson Dec 04, almost one year after our house in Redmond was lost in a fire. WE love it here but wish that we had more family around us closer.
Aaron has been working at Central Autobody as the General Manager now for almost 4yrs. He loves what he does and he has worked really hard and made lots of sacrafices to be where he is at today in this inudstry. He has always enjoyed fixing wrecked cars and now he enjoys running the shop even more. I am really proud of him, and although he is very humble and would never admit it (so I will for him) he is one of the most respected managers in Utah County and very well known among insurance agencies through out Utah. He is trusted, respected, and very much appreciated because of the hard work he puts forth EVERY day. He always goes the extra mile no matter what and I am just so proud of him. It makes me crazy some days because he does go the extra mile and it makes him work long hours but he provides well for our family and for that I am greatful.
When he is home, however, he is home and doesn't let work get in the way of our family. He is a great father to his 4 little girls and an amazing husband to me. He is involved in a lot of different things he does a bowling league, he coaches and plays on the company softball team, and he golfs at charity events and businesss tournaments. He stays very active yet is really grounded.
As for myself I have been running a daycare sense 05. I started out with 13 kids I was watching, now I have cut back to only 4 part time plus my 4. It brings in a little extra and keeps me busy. I have been making a point the last 6 mo to get healthy and make my family healthier too. I enjoy excersising daily. I go to the gym almost every morning at 5a.m. I know that sounds so early, but it really does relax me. Its sorta my break from it all and I can clear my head. Its more therapuetic then anything. I have beent rying to eat healthier and loose weight, and just be fit. It has given me something to do for myself and i have really enjoyed it. Life is busy with the kids but I do try to get out at least once a month with my friends, and Aaron and I try to go on a date at least 2 times a month. We still try to date each other as often as possible it keeps us refreshed and gets us out away from the kids.
Our kids are our life and we feel so blessed that we have amazing kids. Derian is our oldest. She just turned 9 in July. I can't believe we have a 9yr old it seems like yesterday that we had her. She thinks its really wierd that she was born in the hospital we now live behind yet we were living in Redmond at the time. It is sorta ironic. She is a ver sweet little girl that is turning into an amazing young lady. She is very gifted and talented and will do well no matter what she does in her life. She is very smart and is at the top of her class every year. Last year she got so many rewards that it took up our entire fridge. She enjoys school and doing well in it. She is a good artist, very creative, and loves to learn new things. She enjoys her friends and is so sweet to everyone. She is a good helper to me with the little ones even if she doesn't want to. She's a people pleaser & her and I are very close. I hope as she gets older we can continue to keep that bond.
Next is our little Ashlynn. She turned 7 in April and she is my beautiful brown eyed blonde. She is very active and loves gymnastics. She to is very smart and works hard to learn in school. She's a bit shy, yet very outspoken and not afraid to speak her mind when she needs to. I would say she is very honest, and sometimes honesty isn't always the best policy,.... (i.e... like telling someone there shirt is to short, or their hair looks like they just woke up). She is very curious and loves to find out things about bugs, and icky things like why people burp. She is a very loving older sister too even when she doesn't want to be. She's very protective of her two baby sisters and keeps a close eye on them usually beating me to the stairs to save the baby. She's very ender hearted and needs a lot of love and attention. I am proud of her and the little lady she is becoming.
Then our little Kymbree Kathleen. OH me Oh MY! THis child is the cutest, sweetest, yet stuborn and thick headed all in the same hour. She is my fit throwing, in the grocery store screaming kid. I usually DONT take her grocery shopping because she is all over the place, always making new friends with other shoppers. She is very friendly and not shy at all, and she has been that way from a very young age. She will go up and talk to anyone and she's so cute, with a little screachy voice you can't resist talking to her. She is going to b a very talented gymnast someday she already has so much talent and she just barely started classes. She is very strong and shows so much interest in it. She still sleeps with mom and dad which sometimes its so nice to have her cuddled up next to me and other nights I just want her outta there, but we try to cherish every moment because the grow so fast. We know that Kymbree is going to go far in life she is mean and stubborn enough to get there!
Last, my sweet A'jaye. She is such a good baby. She will play contently for hours on the floor as long as Kymbree will leave her alone. She is cuddly and her smile lights up a room. She has the prettiest eyes the shine when she smiles. We just love her and she was a good way to end our family. She is such a blessing to us and I can tell already she has such a strong spirit.
I think thats all of us..... Well I guess I forgot the new addition to the family, Zoey the Boxer pup. We got her in June and she is now 7 or 8 mo old. She's just a pup but she is going to be a good dog. She loves the kids and loves to play soccer with them. She waits and waits for them to get home from school. She's been a good addition to our family. Sometimes I kick myself because it is one more thing to take care of and clean up after but my kids love her to pieces and that makes it all worth it.
Well enough is enough! I love bragging about my family....... I am one lucky women, and our family is very blessed.
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